Crime Fiction Novel

Crime Fiction Novel - My FAVOURITE novel's genre.

why?cause its thrilling n exciting!!Besides, it makes you think. Think who is the criminal? think how he/she did it? think what drive him/her crazy?

I see the darkest side of men. I see the strongest side of men. I see things that been forgotten.

and many more reason.Well, read it yourself if you wanna know.

I suggest you to read, Steg Larsson's trilogy novel start with 'The Girl with the dragon tattoo'. The writing approach is really different, the plot is interesting,the characters are awesome. Love the novel so much!!

BreAking

I fall right off the cliff.

I heard my bones cracking, my soul breaking.

I dont want to open my eyes.

I'm too afraid to move.

I keep waiting for something that i dont even know what.

I cry as I suppress my tears.

I let all the fears, all the pain control me.

I wish I can let go.

I wish.

The MonsTer of Me

i saved him from my evil self in hope he never get hurt becoz of me, but it turn out worst. i cant stop myself thinking about this again and over again. Nevertheless, there is no solution to this matter.

I always believe time will heal this wound but now, its different. this is not wound but DISEASE. that will encounter me many times in this life.

What i need is not a medicine, but a doctor to treat and control me. To waking me up from a nightmare. To holding me in a loneliness.

Yesterday, i wish i have eraser in my head so I can erase all the bad memories but i was wrong, this bad memories are part of me.

How?

How to be a great student? How to have a tremendous passion?

I obviously study for exam, not for the sake of knowledge. Why i behaving like this?

Competition? In my class, almost everyone can be classified as excellent student. My friend from other course said that he always saw electrical student study in the library. Me? I usually only go to the library to print out lecture notes.

Passion? passion like Thomas Edison or maybe Michael Faraday or at least like..umm..any succesful Malaysian. My desire is not HD but more to make myself enjoy my student life in Monash Uni. Its a rare opportunity for people like me to continue my study in overseas university. So why waste it?

Driving Force? I already taste failure. I remember how it hurts me, causing me big stress. But why? why it cant be the driving force?why?

Obviously, i keep talking bout the same thing in my blog. Sorry...

AnGer

ok, he piss me off right now. i saw him online but after few minutes, he's not anymore. I bet he try to run away again(his field of expertise i bet). well, for his information, i'll not chase after him. why would i do that? well, its true, i love him before and most probably until now, but still, i love myself more than that. i'll not crush my own pride, chasing someone who dumb me before, its not worth it. What i need from him right now is answer for all my question and for that, i need to be friendly.

I will be with him if Allah destines it to be like that or else we will walk our own path. When he run away like that, i cant stop thinking how coward he is. he knows that i am a strong girl so he should know i was strong enough to bear all the truth.

He chewed out my heart and now he crushed my pride. He must be forgot who actually i am. I'll show him!

Redha

saya tanya dia, pasal masa silam, psal dia ngan seorg gadis...dia kate xde ape2.xde ape2 yg perlu dirisaukan...tpi dia juga cakap,yang dia cuma mahukan persahabatan dengan kawan sekolah(including me)...sebab kita lebih rapat dan selesa ketika berkawan...

mgkin ramai yg kata, saya patut tunggu dulu, tapi saya lebih suka berterus-terang. Saya xpasti perasaan dia,susah nak detect,dia sangat berhati-hati. Andai kata, dia hanya mahu kami kekal sebagai kawan, saya terima tapi saya tak akan paksa hati saya untuk hentikan perasaan saya pada dia. sememangnya pahit kalau berada dalam ketidakpastian.

Saya faham apa yang berlaku dulu, sekarang dan masa hadapan adalah ketentuan Dia, Tuhan Yang Maha Mengetahui. Dia lebih tahu apa yang terbaik,jadi saya akan tenang dalam semua keadaan. Saya akan bersabar dengan kesabaran yang baik. Sesungguhnya, tiada cinta yang patut melebihi cinta kepada Pemilik cinta.

saya takut...

saya takut apabila hati saya rasa bahagia..
saya takut senyuman di ganti air mata

saya takut apabila diri saya mula berubah...
saya takut akan berubah lagi

saya takut apabila dia mula hampiri...
saya takut dia pergi seperti dulu
saya ingin bertanya soal hati dia...
tapi saya takut dia akan pergi jauhkan diri

saya takut kerana masa silam yang masih memburu
mungkin saya masih trauma...
atau saya memang seorang pengecut
untuk melangkah kehadapan

apapun...saya sangat takut sekarang
dan hanya pada Allah...
saya memohon ketenangan jiwa...

perKongSian Ilmu - Akhlak

Hari ni, aku ada dgr usrah tv9, given by Dato' Dr fateema. Beliau berckap mengenai surah Al-Isra' ayat 18-38.

Dalam ayat2 tersebut telah Allah nyatakan akhlak yang bagaimana harus ada pada setiap mukmin...bagi aku ayat2 ini adalah garis panduan kita semua..

nak tahu apa ayatnye?korang buka la tafsir dan kaji (dgr usrah tv9 ok jugak). Bukan xmahu berkongsi tetapi biarlah korang renung sendiri.

sememangnya larangan2 tu ssh utk dijauhi tetapi bukan mustahil. What we need is sincerity in doing it and determination together with doa n tawakal.

sedih rasa bila ingt umur da banyk tapi ilmu (terutama skali akhirat) sgtlah ckit..korg doakanlah diri ini dapt istiqamah dlm belajr ilmu islam ni.sesungguhnya tiada cara yang lbh baik utk kembali kpd Allah melainkan mengkaji Al-Quran, sunnah dan hadis.

NuZul Quran

17 Ramadhan adalah tarikh bersejarah bagi umat islam. Pada hari ini, diturunkan ayat Al-Quran yang pertama(surah al-alaq) di gua hira' melalui perantaraan malaikat jibril.
Perkataan "Nuzul" bererti turun atau berpindah dari atas ke bawah. Tujuan tulisanku bukanlah untuk menyatakan fakta yang umum tahu tetapi berkongsi rasa tentang Al-Quran.

Pernahkah terlintas kepada kita bahawa Al-Quran ialah ayat dari Allah kepada manusia. Fikirkan betul2,ayat2 yang kita baca selama ini bukanlah kitab biasa ciptaan manusia tetapi dari Tuhan Pencipta Alam ini, yang diturunkan dari langit tertinggi. Bukankah itu satu rahmat yang besar bagi hamba yang hina seperti kita.

Al-Quran, petunjuk kepada umat Rasulullah untuk segala aspek kehidupan. Al-Quran punya semua formula untuk menjadi hamba yang taat dan bertaqwa. Malangnya, manusia kini semakin sombong, tidak menjadikan sumber rujukan utama dalam menjalankan urusan hidup Betapa kita manusia yang tidak bersyukur!

Terus-terang kukatakan, aku juga termasuk dalam golongan manusia yang sering lupa. Apabila tiba Ramadhan baru sibuk nak baca Quran, apabila hati betul resah baru nak belek Quran. Kenapalah begitu sukar untuk mendidik hati!

Walau dahulu, aku jarang membaca Al-Quran (Ya Allah, berikan hambaMu petunjuk) tapi aku sering terpesona dengan ayat2 dan maknanya. Aku selalu ada masalah dalam menjalankan sesuatu yang aku rancang, contohnya, aku cadang nak study lepas sahur tapi xpernah berjaya melakukannya. Aku sangat marah kepada diriku sendiri dan pada waktu itu, terbacalah aku ayat 23:24 surah Al-Kahf(18) yang bermaksud:

'Dan janganlah sekali-kali engkau mengatakan terhadap sesuatu,"Aku pasti melakukan itu besok pagi" kecuali (dengan mengatakn) "insyaAllah". Dan ingatlah kepada tuhanmu apabila engkau lupa dan katakanlah "Mudah-mudahan Tuhanku akan memberiku petunujk kepadaKu agar aku yang lebih dekat (kebenarannya daripada ini)'.

Aku bukanlah seorang yang berilmu dalam mentafsir ayat Quran tetapi ini sudah cukup untuk mengingatkanku apa yang harus aku lakukan(atau sebutkan) ketika merancang dalam mebuat sesuatu.

Sememangnya Al-Quran adalah sumber terbaik kita dalam hidup ini. Aku harap dapat mengamalkan membaca Al-Quran setiap hari dan belajar tentang makna ayat2nya.InsyaAllah.

FOOTSTEPS

THAT DAY DURING THE SUNSET
MY FOOTSTEPS TOOK ME
OPENING MY EYES
TO THE PLACE I THOUGHT I HAD FORGOTTEN

YOU SAID I KNOW VERY LITTLE ABOUT THE WORLD
WITH EYES SHOWING A LITTLE WORRY,
WITH A SORRY SMILE
YES, I GUESS I REALLY DONT KNOW THE WORLD
MAYBE I WALKED THIS LONG WAY BY MYSELF

YOU SAID I CAN NEVER HELP YOU ACHIEVE YOUR DREAMS
DID YOU FORGET WHO SAVE YOU FROM DROWNING
HAVE YOU FORGOTTEN, WHO TRY SO HARD TO MAKE YOU STAND AGAIN
YET I SAID SORRY EVERYTIME
YES, YOU REALLY DONT KNOW ME AND MY WORLD

IT DOESNT MATTER TO YOU ANYMORE

REMEMBER, ONE DAY U WILL EXPERIENCE THE SAME PAIN THE SAME FEEL

FRAGILE IS ME, THAT'S WHAT U SAID
BUT STILL YOU DONT UNDERSTAND
WHEN I'M ANGRY AND FRUSTRATED

BLAMING ME, IS THAT ALL U CAN DO?
YOUR HEART, YOUR MIND AND YOUR SOUL
NO LONGER OPEN FOR ME
AS I NO LONGER EXIST TO YOU

FOR YOU THAT I CAN NEITHER LOVE NOR HATE

I'M SORRY THIS ALL I CAN DO
REALLY, ITS THE ONLY WAY I CAN BE
FOR THAT DAY TO COME
WHEN I CAN START OVER AGAIN

WE SHALL NEVER MEET....

waiting....

“There are three types of friends: those like food, without which you can't live; those like medicine, which you need occasionally; and those like an illness, which you never want.”

~~uuuu...It has been quiet sometime i did not write in my blog...what happen to hariz n soori/sara? many things happen but i'm too lazy to write it...but i will update the story soon~~

“How does one become a butterfly?" she asked. "You must want to fly so much that you are willing to give up being a caterpillar.”

biggest loser

*sigh*

its getting worse. my life is getting worse and its all my fault. I hate myself. Why cant I change?

one of my resolution is become an early riser. I want to wake up 6 am every morning, so i can attend 8 am lecture with fresh mind. Unfortunately, I found its difficult.

in a right mind, right now, i can say "i'll wake up at 6am" but when i was half asleep...*sigh again*

what the heck wrong with me? i'm in week 9, almost finish my sem but i didnt change at all. I'm afraid if i keep miss my classes, i'll end up getting bad pointer. I already promise pn Naemah to improve my result.

If i'm telling anyone about this, i know exactly what they will say. Some of my friend think i'm a genius that dont have to study to get excellent result, that totally WRONG!!!! they used to say "relaks r sarah, ko pandai, xpe.. leh wat punye."

A true friend will never discourage her/his own friend. I know, u just tell me the fact but thats not the point here. If i am even the smartest human in this world, u should encourage me to work hard, so i can go further but not stopping me, so i can walk beside you.

see, i'm blaming my friend despite its absolutely my own fault. *sigh*

Maybe, i should have room mate but i'm afraid she will hate me. there is part of me that i dont wanna show to anyone. My last roommate hate me, treat me badly because of that part me. I dont want myself get hurt again.

or Should i get married? so someone will kick me off the bed and keep babbling until i make him a breakfast. That kind of great idea but the problem is who will marry me? and who the hell will get marry just because to wake up early. totally insane!!!

arghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh........

i mess up my own future!!!!

SOS!!!!!i really want to cry right now.

p/s: i absolutely doesnt need any pieces of advice. I dont even know, what i really need.

2010

wow...lama gile xtlis dlm blog ni..nmpak usang je...tpi nak wat cmne, ngah busy...

i'll try to update this blog before end of july..hehe