Wednesday, September 30, 2009

gohae-confession by chi yul..but i like lee seung gi version. eventhough seung gi just debuted that time but his husky voice really make this beautiful song sounds extremely great..as usuall you can watch the video in youtube.

Romanization :

ojji-ham-ni-kka
ottohke hal-kkayo
kamhi jega-kamhi
kunyo-rul sarang-hamnida

choyonghi na jucha
na juchado mo-ru-ge
ijun chok sanda-nun kon
sarado chugun gomnida

sesange binando michyobo-il mo-seub-do
modu da alji-man
kuge duryo-jiman sarang-hamnida

odiye innayo
je yae-gi jongmal turrishinayo
kurom pi hallinun kayomsun
che sarangul algo kyoshin-gayo

yoso-hae juseyo
bol ha-shindamyon cho badul-kkeyo
hona konyomanun
jege kunyo hanaman hora-khae-chusoso

odiye innayo
je yae-gi jongmal turrishinayo
kurom pi hallinun kayomsun
che sarangul algo kyoshin-gayo

yoso-hae juseyo
bol ha-shindamyon cho badul-kkeyo
hona konyomanun
jege kunyo hanaman hora-khae-chusoso

i always sing this song in my bedroom, to my housemate if you wondering what the heck i'm singing all this time, this is the translation.

translation:

What happens now?
What exactly should I do?
I dare...dare to...
Love her

Quietly so that even ...
even I wouldn't know
to live as if i've forgotten
is to live a life of death

the criticism of the world
and appearing to be insane
i know of it all
but though i'm afraid I love her

Where are you?
Can you listen to what I'm saying?
Do you know of my pitiful bleeding love?

Please forgive me
If you'll punish me, I'll accept it
But...just her...
Please...just her... Please allow me to love

Where are you?
Can you listen to what I'm saying?
Do you know of my pitiful bleeding love?

Please forgive me
If you'll punish me, I'll accept it
But...just her...
Please...just her... Please allow me to love



** why i really love this song, despite of lee seung gi beautiful voice, the lyric also meaningful. its about this guy that lack in many things but accidentally fall in love with great girl. Its hard for him to love her but impossible to let her go. I remember one saying (maybe idiom) from 1 program that I watched, it sounds something like this "its imposibble for me to win but there is now way I should retreat", i'll watch my this program again to get the right sentence.

** why its meaningful? for me it is because i always favor something that unreachable either it is goods or guy. i mean i always like something that nearly impossible for me to get it. for instance, when i go to shopping, the clothes that i like must be so expensive, and that is why i always avoid myself go shopping.

** i really wish that i can sing this song beautifully. any idea to improve my voice without going to the vocal class.

grace

i really love this song sang by lee soo young..u can find the video in youtube.
this is the lyrics..

LEE SOO YOUNG : GRACE

It's going to be okay

Even if we lose this foolish love of mine, it'll be okay

I prepare my heart and I put some makeup on and
go alone to that path I had gone with you.
There's a bounce in my step and a slight redness to my face
It's a good day for forgetting you

I'll be okay even if a few tears are shed
because they're there to wash the sadness away
I'm going to be free now
Love, love, go far away

I put my trust in you but you've left me alone crying

I climb above reality and throw your name up as well
as these remnant memories that hold me down
I take a deep breath and spit out today
It's a good day for forgetting you

I'll be okay even if a few tears are shed
because they're there to wash the sadness away
I'm going to be free now
Love, love, go far away

Forgetting wasn't such a big deal but
what am I suppose to do with this livid longing?

I'll be okay even if a few tears are shed
because they're there to wash the sadness away
I'm going to be free now
Love, love, go far away

My love, my love go far away
so that I can't hold onto you again

why leaving?

Thursday, September 10, 2009

I wish I can write beautifully, so I can express everything in my lyrics.

I wish I have wonderful voice, so I can tell you my feeling through my music.

I wish I can cry on your shoulder, so I can wash all my weary away.

I wish I have a gut to say I’m sorry, thank you, I’m angry, don’t go..so I can keep you by my side.

If only you can stand for another minute.

If only you can smile again for me.


To people that leave me, lover, fren…just once,listen what I feel

Lee seung gi, why are you leaving or, wae..gani :

“Are you leaving, up to this point, is that all there is for us
How does your heart change, I trusted you so much
Are you crying, are you crying because your heart is sorry for breaking up
By chance does this easily pass over, it’s still love though
You don’t know, love is a duty too, even if it’s hard you must protect it
Why are you shattering everything, why are you doing away with everything in one moment
How can I erase you, how can I forget you, there are too many days spent together
I should have changed like this, I should have turned away, why did you say you loved me
What do you know, what do you know, do you even know my heart that’s hurting from love
Having only known you, where do I go now

Isn't it such a waste, those many days of laughter and tears
Don't throw me away so easily, please don't do that, remember

How can I erase you, how can I forget you, there are too many days spent together
I should have changed like this, I should have turned away, why did you say you loved me
What do you know, what do you know, do you even know my heart that’s hurting from love
Having only known you, where do I go now

Alright, I'll try to forget, I'll try to forget and live
Until the day I hate you

Don’t say a word and leave, leave like this, don’t tell me to be happy
What do you know, what do you know, how do I make my heart happy
I’ve forgotten love now and forgotten everything
Still, only tears are left “

video

B.O.S.A.N

perkataan ni da mkn sebati ngan aku..bosan bkn xde keje nak wat tp sbb byk sgt mende nak wat smpi xtau nak start dr mane..bosan tull

yg menambhkan bosan ialah XDE MENDE nak PIKIR slain pljaran a.k.a no problem..btullah "no problem is also problem"

aku xtau nak mrh psl ape, xde alsn nak sedih, xde sebab nak happy....NO FEELING..haih

oleh sebab kebosanan itu, aku pun cr psl ngan housemate aku ngan marah psl periuk kuali ats dapur..hahaha..lwk2..

dgr lagu slow,lyn blues smbil cuba mengeluarkan air mata..hbs je lagu tu,air mata pun bhnti..btulla kate org "sarah heartless"

nak happy kan diri sndiri,aku pun tgk la 1 night 2 days (variety show in korea)..dgn i2 ketwa terbahak2 la aku keseorgn...

Smpi thp 2 skali kebosanan aku..kalu ikutkan aku yg plih utk brsendiri..org ajk buka puasa umah senior aku tolak, org ajak terawih sesama aku tolak, org ajk kuar shopng aku tolak..aku yg memilih kebosanan ini..

tp seriusly,sbb slalu sgt jln sesorg aku da xbesa kalu ade org accompany aku..dlm otak aku puas pikir..nak borak ape?nk wat muka cmne?

aku sebenarnye xsuka dgr mp3 smbil jln,aku lbih suka dgr bunyi alam tp sbb kebosanan aku pun dgr lagu drpd aku berangan smpi terlggr pokok..haha

bila pikir balik kat msia lagi aku mmg slalu sesorg..sjak kecik kot..mak aku cite ckp masa kecik aku slalu tgk tv sesorg xpun duk dlm bilik CAKAP SESORG. mak ingt aku gile..serius..mak btul2 ingt aku gila..nsb bek normal

tp wpun normal, aku ttp byk prangai pelik brbandg ngan sibling aku yg len. Aku siap kena bribe dorg supaya dorg xbitau bkl hubby aku psl prangai pelk aku..hahaha..

malam (act awl pagi) be4 aku fly abg ngan akak aku borak psal aku.masa 2 dorg ngat aku da tdo so dorg pun mengutuk smbil ketawkn aku. siap ckp 'xsangka adik kita sorg ni fly, nmpak mcm xde future je', lbih kurg mcm 2 la..hahaha..agak benar la sbnrnye dorg ni..tp bangga gak bila mak aku ckp 'xsia2 mak xmkn nasi 9 buln ms ngandung dulu' terharu2..

As conclusion , AKU BOSAN so tlg la bgi aku mslah nak pikir.

oh ye aku dpt cite2 bru iaitu "BROADCAST ENGINEER" so kalu korg tau psl pkerjaan let me know k...

my true feeling...

Saturday, September 5, 2009

Abg aku pnah ckap wpun dia syg rmai pompuan tp dia cume cinta pd sorg pompuan...dan wpun dia tukar awek cam tukr baju tp dia stil ngan dak pompuan 2, lbih dr 5 thun..jeles lak aku,bkn stkt 5 thun, 5 bln pun aku xmampu nak perthnkan hbgn aku.

Mak aku pnah ckap, org yang menangis bagai nak rak(beria gila la menangis) sbb kehilangan org yg dia syg lbih cpt melupakn dr org yg nmpak tenang..mase dia mntk putus, setitis pun air mata aku xjatuh tp da 2 thun blalu, aku msh xley lupakan dia..wpun aku suka rmai llaki dlm tempoh tu tp ingatan aku stil pada dia..da lame aku padam no fon dia, tpi smpi skunk aku msh ingt no 2..

aku malu nak mengaku yg aku msh xbley lupakan dia sbb aku xnak org anggap aku syok sgt kat dia sdgkan dia xla hebat sgt..tp smpi bile aku nak menipu?aku msh rindu pde dia..msih buka page dia..msh bace sume komen dlm page..msh msg dia

wpun dia xpnah pduli, n keep hurtg me but i still stutter when listen 2 his name.. ape2 ttg dia msh buat aku tertarik..mcm org bodoh

aku slalu pikir yg kalu aku suka org len, aku akn lupa dia..btul, aku lupa ttg dia tp hye utk seketika..kemudian aku kmbali pd dia n biarkan hati aku terluka lagi..

ape bagus sgt dia tu?i keep saying it to my heart. mgkin dia xla hebat sgt tp dia pnah wat aku gembira n itulah hubungan kapel yg aku plg suka..aku rindu kan prasaan bahagia tu..dia pnah wat aku senyum,pnah wat aku menangis n aku rindukan sume tuh..

aku tau bkn sng dia nak keep in touch stlah ape yg blaku tp aku cuma hrp dia..look at me once again..tlg aku lupakan dia..aku nak kami kembali berkwn mcm sblm kami kapel...i need him..always..wak2 aku gembira, aku nk dia trut tersenyum..wak2 aku sedih, aku nak dia disisi..ckup la sbagai sorg kwan..

sowey la terjiwng lak..aku cuma nak jujur pd diri aku n owg len..ye..aku ni jiwg gak sebenarnye wpun nampk cam kasr..setiap kali post pe2, aku hrp dia bace wpun aku tau dia xpnah bace..i guess i'm a fool..tpi aku pcaye, aku akn lupakn dia 1 hri nnti sbb aku bknlah sgt mencintai dia, aku cuma saygkan perasaan bahagia yg dia pnah beri kan kat aku..

TRUST

Friday, September 4, 2009

I just completed my truss bridge project.Yay!! Eventhough I hate my presentation but its ok since the only matter is ITS OVER..hahahaha

But,we just receive another project that due in the next 2 week.HATE IT!!!!!!

What have I learn from this project? TRUST!!!!

when we do a work in group, one of the most important thing is trust.Why? As for me, I found it difficult to let someone do my work. You know, we divide the task and then do our task only, thats so difficult for me because in the end everyone get the same result. What if someone screw up? The whole project will be suck. That is the reason why I always butt in in others task but it is not a good thing to do.

If we trust our group member, is that mean that we need to let them do their way? for me, its more like we run away from our responsibility. So, what act can we say TRUST?

How about in term of relationship? Frankly speaking I hate if my pouse lying to me but I lie a lot too. Its really unfair, isnt it. However, for me the base thing in relationship is not only love but also trust. When I accept someone's love, I put 50% of my trust on him. I believe that he can bring tears and joys in my life. everything will end when he lie to me without a valid reasons and its hard for me to trust again. This is the kind of realationship that I've been through before and I know thats not a real love. Maybe, when I truly in love with someone, I can accept every lies he makes, get hurt over and over again, stupidly put 100% trust on him.

Lately, I watch a korean drama entitled 'the worlds they live in'. If you looking for a drama that almost similar to reality, I recommended this drama.

Drama review

'The World That They Live In features Song Hye Gyo and Hyun Bin, the stars of two of the most popular Korean dramas of recent years, Full House and My Name Is Kim Samsoon. This drama is about the people who make these addicting dramas, and offers an intriguing perspective on the personal and professional lives of those in the drama production industry. Ji Oh (Hyun Bin) is a successful producer/director (PD) who created a series of critically acclaimed hits, and Joon Young (Song Hye Gyo) is a rising star PD attracting attention after winning an award at an international festival. They have some history together and both just got out of bad relationships. They get back together but their romance turns out to be pretty complicated and full of drama, just like the dramas they produce (what a shocker!).'

Usually, drama is about 2 persons fall in love and put an effort to be together but this drama is about 2 persons that has been in relationship before and try to get together again. Its also focusing in others character story. For me, this is not a love's story drama but A DRAMA OF LIFE.


before this, I usually watch a drama non-stop, episodes after episodes but for this drama I cant do like that. Not because its boring but I feel afraid to know what happen next. Just like in my life, sometimes I afraid to face my next day, thinking waht will happen and what I'm going to do. The worse thing is, I always run away from problem eventhough i always said to myself 'the only way to solve a problem is face it'.

I wish I can convey everything I feel about this drama but I cant find the right word.Believe me its worthing to watch. Perhaps I will but the DVD if I find it somewhere. while I'm writing this, one korean man sit near me and he was speaking korea. I dont know why but I feel happy.



Why?

Tuesday, September 1, 2009

It comes across again in my heart, the same question whenever I get stress. Why I taking Engineering? Why you do something that you dont have any passion in it?

This week I have 3 test in a row and 1 project submission. Starting from last week I try to focus on study but I fail. All of this thing bored me to death. what make it worse is I didnt attend almost all the lectures and I didnt answer tutorial questions accept for math.

Hidup aku skunk ni memg kelam kabut. Malam jaga, siang tdo..pas2 kalu jage 2 sebuk study xpe gak tp aku sebuk tgk cite n wat mende2 ngarut dpn komp. Tadi, bru lepas test process system analysis and frankly speaking I cant even answer 1 question.

xde ape yg menyeronokkn kat cni..membosankan..........................................................................

sblum ni aku mls gak tp xla semls ni. mkn lama mkin truk. Kat cni xde sape pduli, aku pgi kels ke x. well, housemate aku mmg ade suh gi klas sume 2, kalu dorg tau aku xgi lectre mmg dorg marah n sebb 2lah aku slalu tipu dorg. bile fikir, mgkin sbab aku xde drive force kat cni.kalu kat uni10 dulu sbb kemaruk sgt nak fly so menggila gak la study tp kat cni ntah la. Aku slalu tye diri aku, kenape aku study? ape aku wat kat cni? kenapa aku rase beban? kenapa aku xgembira?

masa aku dilemma nk amik engin or ckgu, mak aku ada ckap " ikut arah la, asalkan arah bahgia, mak restu je apepun pilhn arah" tp kenapa aku xrase gembira? no excitement at all. Aku sgt benci keadaan aku skunk, I really hate myself.

Ramai org yg seumur ngan aku, kalu dgr lagu cinta msti bygkan seseorg, pas2 senyum sndiri. Whenver I listen 2 a love song, I try to imagine someone but it appears 2 be no one. pas2 aku tertanya sndiri, aku ni ade hati ke x? Aku rindu perasaan 2, perasaan bila kita sukakn sesorg wpun kadg2 menyakitkan tp perasaan 2 membahagiakn. Bila aku bce entry Tqah 'persoalan cinta' aku terpikr, if i ever fall in love. I dont care if people said i'm desperate but I really want to fall in love, to have some1 that I can think about, that can put smile and tears on my faces.

last night, I really stress and I wantd to cry to ease my heart. In 0rder to cry I listen to a very sad song and force my tears to burst out, I did it but only for about 5 minutes. After the song stop, my tears also stop and I feel nothing, grinning and said to myself 'I must be crazy'. So pathetic.

Masa mula2 dtg cni aku ade la jugak suka senior aku sorg ni tapi sbb jrg jumpe, perasaan 2 pun da hilg. Skunk ni bile dgr nama dia excited la jgak tp hati aku xrase ape pun. mmg bunyi mcm desperate kn tp bile jd cmni aku rase cam hati aku not alive. argh..bosan...

ape yg plu aku wat utk berubah, untuk dptkn kmbali semgt blaja? wat should be my driveforce?

Aku mgkin da slh plh course but there is no turning back. Wat shoul I do then to survive another 3 challenging years? Who can help?

I'm so tired being hipocrit, faking smile, lying, excusing. i'm soooooo tired.