Kurniaan dalam samaran - Blessing in Disguise

Thursday, July 9, 2015

Kurniaan dalam kesamaran - Siti Nurhaliza
Kiambang hanyut ke muara
Perahu pulang ke penambang
Lambat laun kan bersua
Biarpun di gulung gelombang
Dugaan yang tak di sangka
Perpisahan yang dipaksa
Kurniaan yang dalam samaran
Itu yang ku harapkan
Berpijak pada bumi nyata
Bak miniti jambatan bara
Jalan yang mana harus kami lalui
Jalan lurus mereka halangi
Kita dibiar terapung
Di awangan cinta
Diperbudak-budakkan saja
bagaikan boneka cinta
Kerana kebangsawanan
Dan sandiwara mereka
Dua hati menjadi beku
Rela dilempar ke gurun debu
Walau apa hadapi bersama
Demi cinta...oh...
Cinta kita...

Color Test

Thursday, July 2, 2015

I retook color test that I did few years back. The results are quite different - well, its reflect your current situation.

I am doing an internship currently. The results almost get my real condition. I certainly not very happy here for a reason stated below. My Pride definitely become an obstacle for me to strive further.


Your Existing Situation
Desires to be respected by others in order to gain their trust and support for her own personal gain.

Your Stress Sources
"Needs to meet people who have the same high principals and values as himself, but finds the need unfulfilled. her need to feel dominate and superior leaves her feeling isolated and does not allow for her to give freely of himself. she would like to surrender and let go, but sees that as a weakness she must not give in to. Holding back will allow her to stand out for the crowd and earn a higher status, recognized by others as unique and important."

Your Restrained Characteristics
Feels unhappy and isolated because she is unable to succeed in finding the cooperation and understanding she desires.
"Believes her hopes and dreams are realistic and sticks to them stubbornly, even though circumstances are forcing her to compromise. Very precise in the qualities she seeks in a partner."
"Believes her hopes and dreams are realistic and sticks to them stubbornly, even though circumstances are forcing her to compromise. Very precise in the qualities she seeks in a partner."

Your Desired Objective
"Wants to make a good impression on others and be seen as a special individual, like no one else. she is constantly observing how others react to her and to make sure this is true. she knows how to effectively gain special recognition, by planning and scheming. she is draw to things which are beautiful and unique."

Your Actual Problem
"Needs to be viewed and respected as an outstanding individual, in order to build her self-esteem and self-worth. Resists any type of weakness and sets high standards for himself."

Color Test - Results

Your Existing Situation

Desires to be respected by others in order to gain their trust and support for her own personal gain.

Your Stress Sources

"Needs to meet people who have the same high principals and values as himself, but finds the need unfulfilled. her need to feel dominate and superior leaves her feeling isolated and does not allow for her to give freely of himself. she would like to surrender and let go, but sees that as a weakness she must not give in to. Holding back will allow her to stand out for the crowd and earn a higher status, recognized by others as unique and important."

Your Restrained Characteristics

Feels unhappy and isolated because she is unable to succeed in finding the cooperation and understanding she desires.
"Believes her hopes and dreams are realistic and sticks to them stubbornly, even though circumstances are forcing her to compromise. Very precise in the qualities she seeks in a partner."
"Believes her hopes and dreams are realistic and sticks to them stubbornly, even though circumstances are forcing her to compromise. Very precise in the qualities she seeks in a partner."

Your Desired Objective

"Wants to make a good impression on others and be seen as a special individual, like no one else. she is constantly observing how others react to her and to make sure this is true. she knows how to effectively gain special recognition, by planning and scheming. she is draw to things which are beautiful and unique."

Your Actual Problem

"Needs to be viewed and respected as an outstanding individual, in order to build her self-esteem and self-worth. Resists any type of weakness and sets high standards for himself."
- See more at: http://www.colorquiz.com/results.php?code=f,2,5,1,0,4,7,3,6,1,2,5,3,1,4,7,0,6,4&p=full#sthash.d81H5WJZ.dpuf

Color Test - Results

Your Existing Situation

Desires to be respected by others in order to gain their trust and support for her own personal gain.

Your Stress Sources

"Needs to meet people who have the same high principals and values as himself, but finds the need unfulfilled. her need to feel dominate and superior leaves her feeling isolated and does not allow for her to give freely of himself. she would like to surrender and let go, but sees that as a weakness she must not give in to. Holding back will allow her to stand out for the crowd and earn a higher status, recognized by others as unique and important."

Your Restrained Characteristics

Feels unhappy and isolated because she is unable to succeed in finding the cooperation and understanding she desires.
"Believes her hopes and dreams are realistic and sticks to them stubbornly, even though circumstances are forcing her to compromise. Very precise in the qualities she seeks in a partner."
"Believes her hopes and dreams are realistic and sticks to them stubbornly, even though circumstances are forcing her to compromise. Very precise in the qualities she seeks in a partner."

Your Desired Objective

"Wants to make a good impression on others and be seen as a special individual, like no one else. she is constantly observing how others react to her and to make sure this is true. she knows how to effectively gain special recognition, by planning and scheming. she is draw to things which are beautiful and unique."

Your Actual Problem

"Needs to be viewed and respected as an outstanding individual, in order to build her self-esteem and self-worth. Resists any type of weakness and sets high standards for himself."
- See more at: http://www.colorquiz.com/results.php?code=f,2,5,1,0,4,7,3,6,1,2,5,3,1,4,7,0,6,4&p=full#sthash.d81H5WJZ.dpuf

Color Test - Results

Your Existing Situation

Desires to be respected by others in order to gain their trust and support for her own personal gain.

Your Stress Sources

"Needs to meet people who have the same high principals and values as himself, but finds the need unfulfilled. her need to feel dominate and superior leaves her feeling isolated and does not allow for her to give freely of himself. she would like to surrender and let go, but sees that as a weakness she must not give in to. Holding back will allow her to stand out for the crowd and earn a higher status, recognized by others as unique and important."

Your Restrained Characteristics

Feels unhappy and isolated because she is unable to succeed in finding the cooperation and understanding she desires.
"Believes her hopes and dreams are realistic and sticks to them stubbornly, even though circumstances are forcing her to compromise. Very precise in the qualities she seeks in a partner."
"Believes her hopes and dreams are realistic and sticks to them stubbornly, even though circumstances are forcing her to compromise. Very precise in the qualities she seeks in a partner."

Your Desired Objective

"Wants to make a good impression on others and be seen as a special individual, like no one else. she is constantly observing how others react to her and to make sure this is true. she knows how to effectively gain special recognition, by planning and scheming. she is draw to things which are beautiful and unique."

Your Actual Problem

"Needs to be viewed and respected as an outstanding individual, in order to build her self-esteem and self-worth. Resists any type of weakness and sets high standards for himself."
- See more at: http://www.colorquiz.com/results.php?code=f,2,5,1,0,4,7,3,6,1,2,5,3,1,4,7,0,6,4&p=full#sthash.d81H5WJZ.dpuf

Color Test - Results

Your Existing Situation

Desires to be respected by others in order to gain their trust and support for her own personal gain.

Your Stress Sources

"Needs to meet people who have the same high principals and values as himself, but finds the need unfulfilled. her need to feel dominate and superior leaves her feeling isolated and does not allow for her to give freely of himself. she would like to surrender and let go, but sees that as a weakness she must not give in to. Holding back will allow her to stand out for the crowd and earn a higher status, recognized by others as unique and important."

Your Restrained Characteristics

Feels unhappy and isolated because she is unable to succeed in finding the cooperation and understanding she desires.
"Believes her hopes and dreams are realistic and sticks to them stubbornly, even though circumstances are forcing her to compromise. Very precise in the qualities she seeks in a partner."
"Believes her hopes and dreams are realistic and sticks to them stubbornly, even though circumstances are forcing her to compromise. Very precise in the qualities she seeks in a partner."

Your Desired Objective

"Wants to make a good impression on others and be seen as a special individual, like no one else. she is constantly observing how others react to her and to make sure this is true. she knows how to effectively gain special recognition, by planning and scheming. she is draw to things which are beautiful and unique."

Your Actual Problem

"Needs to be viewed and respected as an outstanding individual, in order to build her self-esteem and self-worth. Resists any type of weakness and sets high standards for himself."
- See more at: http://www.colorquiz.com/results.php?code=f,2,5,1,0,4,7,3,6,1,2,5,3,1,4,7,0,6,4&p=full#sthash.d81H5WJZ.dpuf

Color Test - Results

Your Existing Situation

Desires to be respected by others in order to gain their trust and support for her own personal gain.

Your Stress Sources

"Needs to meet people who have the same high principals and values as himself, but finds the need unfulfilled. her need to feel dominate and superior leaves her feeling isolated and does not allow for her to give freely of himself. she would like to surrender and let go, but sees that as a weakness she must not give in to. Holding back will allow her to stand out for the crowd and earn a higher status, recognized by others as unique and important."

Your Restrained Characteristics

Feels unhappy and isolated because she is unable to succeed in finding the cooperation and understanding she desires.
"Believes her hopes and dreams are realistic and sticks to them stubbornly, even though circumstances are forcing her to compromise. Very precise in the qualities she seeks in a partner."
"Believes her hopes and dreams are realistic and sticks to them stubbornly, even though circumstances are forcing her to compromise. Very precise in the qualities she seeks in a partner."

Your Desired Objective

"Wants to make a good impression on others and be seen as a special individual, like no one else. she is constantly observing how others react to her and to make sure this is true. she knows how to effectively gain special recognition, by planning and scheming. she is draw to things which are beautiful and unique."

Your Actual Problem

"Needs to be viewed and respected as an outstanding individual, in order to build her self-esteem and self-worth. Resists any type of weakness and sets high standards for himself."
- See more at: http://www.colorquiz.com/results.php?code=f,2,5,1,0,4,7,3,6,1,2,5,3,1,4,7,0,6,4&p=full#sthash.d81H5WJZ.dpuf

Color Test - Results

Your Existing Situation

Desires to be respected by others in order to gain their trust and support for her own personal gain.

Your Stress Sources

"Needs to meet people who have the same high principals and values as himself, but finds the need unfulfilled. her need to feel dominate and superior leaves her feeling isolated and does not allow for her to give freely of himself. she would like to surrender and let go, but sees that as a weakness she must not give in to. Holding back will allow her to stand out for the crowd and earn a higher status, recognized by others as unique and important."

Your Restrained Characteristics

Feels unhappy and isolated because she is unable to succeed in finding the cooperation and understanding she desires.
"Believes her hopes and dreams are realistic and sticks to them stubbornly, even though circumstances are forcing her to compromise. Very precise in the qualities she seeks in a partner."
"Believes her hopes and dreams are realistic and sticks to them stubbornly, even though circumstances are forcing her to compromise. Very precise in the qualities she seeks in a partner."

Your Desired Objective

"Wants to make a good impression on others and be seen as a special individual, like no one else. she is constantly observing how others react to her and to make sure this is true. she knows how to effectively gain special recognition, by planning and scheming. she is draw to things which are beautiful and unique."

Your Actual Problem

"Needs to be viewed and respected as an outstanding individual, in order to build her self-esteem and self-worth. Resists any type of weakness and sets high standards for himself."
- See more at: http://www.colorquiz.com/results.php?code=f,2,5,1,0,4,7,3,6,1,2,5,3,1,4,7,0,6,4&p=full#sthash.d81H5WJZ.dpuf

Color Test - Results

Your Existing Situation

Desires to be respected by others in order to gain their trust and support for her own personal gain.

Your Stress Sources

"Needs to meet people who have the same high principals and values as himself, but finds the need unfulfilled. her need to feel dominate and superior leaves her feeling isolated and does not allow for her to give freely of himself. she would like to surrender and let go, but sees that as a weakness she must not give in to. Holding back will allow her to stand out for the crowd and earn a higher status, recognized by others as unique and important."

Your Restrained Characteristics

Feels unhappy and isolated because she is unable to succeed in finding the cooperation and understanding she desires.
"Believes her hopes and dreams are realistic and sticks to them stubbornly, even though circumstances are forcing her to compromise. Very precise in the qualities she seeks in a partner."
"Believes her hopes and dreams are realistic and sticks to them stubbornly, even though circumstances are forcing her to compromise. Very precise in the qualities she seeks in a partner."

Your Desired Objective

"Wants to make a good impression on others and be seen as a special individual, like no one else. she is constantly observing how others react to her and to make sure this is true. she knows how to effectively gain special recognition, by planning and scheming. she is draw to things which are beautiful and unique."

Your Actual Problem

"Needs to be viewed and respected as an outstanding individual, in order to build her self-esteem and self-worth. Resists any type of weakness and sets high standards for himself."
- See more at: http://www.colorquiz.com/results.php?code=f,2,5,1,0,4,7,3,6,1,2,5,3,1,4,7,0,6,4&p=full#sthash.d81H5WJZ.dpuf

Color Test - Results

Your Existing Situation

Desires to be respected by others in order to gain their trust and support for her own personal gain.

Your Stress Sources

"Needs to meet people who have the same high principals and values as himself, but finds the need unfulfilled. her need to feel dominate and superior leaves her feeling isolated and does not allow for her to give freely of himself. she would like to surrender and let go, but sees that as a weakness she must not give in to. Holding back will allow her to stand out for the crowd and earn a higher status, recognized by others as unique and important."

Your Restrained Characteristics

Feels unhappy and isolated because she is unable to succeed in finding the cooperation and understanding she desires.
"Believes her hopes and dreams are realistic and sticks to them stubbornly, even though circumstances are forcing her to compromise. Very precise in the qualities she seeks in a partner."
"Believes her hopes and dreams are realistic and sticks to them stubbornly, even though circumstances are forcing her to compromise. Very precise in the qualities she seeks in a partner."

Your Desired Objective

"Wants to make a good impression on others and be seen as a special individual, like no one else. she is constantly observing how others react to her and to make sure this is true. she knows how to effectively gain special recognition, by planning and scheming. she is draw to things which are beautiful and unique."

Your Actual Problem

"Needs to be viewed and respected as an outstanding individual, in order to build her self-esteem and self-worth. Resists any type of weakness and sets high standards for himself."
- See more at: http://www.colorquiz.com/results.php?code=f,2,5,1,0,4,7,3,6,1,2,5,3,1,4,7,0,6,4&p=full#sthash.d81H5WJZ.dpuf

Di balik bayang

Wednesday, July 1, 2015

Aku mengenali seseorang, sekadar dari jauh, memerhati dirinya tanpa dilihat. Dia begitu berani menempuh hidup ini, tidak seperti aku yg sering menyorok dibalik bayang-bayang. Dia merantau merata tempat sehingga ke satu kawasan aku sendiri tak berani menjejak seorang diri. Tetapi dia berani. 

Berani dia pincang kali ini. Hati dia keliru, cemburu. Aku mahu tahu, kenapa dia begitu? Kenapa dia begitu kecewa? Apa yang berlaku kepadanya? Apa yang berlaku kepada senyumannya, yang kini begitu dingin tak berseri? Aku mahu bertanya tetapi aku sedar tempat aku, lalu aku kembali dalam bayangan. 

Hanya yang dapat aku hulurkan, sekeping doa supaya dia beroleh tenang. Kepada sang Pencipta, Yang Maha Pengasih lagi Maha Penyayang, aku berdoa supaya dia temui jalan ke syurga. 

Andai aku dapat peluang berbicara hati ke hati dengannya, ada beberapa perkara yg ingin aku katakan. "Aku juga seperti kamu, sering keliru dengan hala tujuku, kiri kanan rasa berliku. Saat semua menghempap jiwa, pejamkan mata, tarik nafas sedalam-dalamnya, rasakan jiwamu, dan tanya apa destinasi sebenar hidup ini. Tak kira jalan mana kau pilih, andai kau tahu mana destinasi, kau takkan pernah tersasar. Kita takkan pernah tersasar. Mana destinasi itu? Sudah semestinya cuma satu, cuma satu yang benar-benar berbaloi perjalanan hidup yang penuh dugaan, hanya satu, iaitu ke SYURGA. Destinasi abadi, hakiki dan terindah melangkaui imaginasimu sendiri. Apa sahaja yang kau lakukan, kekallah jalan ke syurga."

Sampai bila aku harus bersembunyi? Hanya Allah yang tahu.