*sigh*
its getting worse. my life is getting worse and its all my fault. I hate myself. Why cant I change?
one of my resolution is become an early riser. I want to wake up 6 am every morning, so i can attend 8 am lecture with fresh mind. Unfortunately, I found its difficult.
in a right mind, right now, i can say "i'll wake up at 6am" but when i was half asleep...*sigh again*
what the heck wrong with me? i'm in week 9, almost finish my sem but i didnt change at all. I'm afraid if i keep miss my classes, i'll end up getting bad pointer. I already promise pn Naemah to improve my result.
If i'm telling anyone about this, i know exactly what they will say. Some of my friend think i'm a genius that dont have to study to get excellent result, that totally WRONG!!!! they used to say "relaks r sarah, ko pandai, xpe.. leh wat punye."
A true friend will never discourage her/his own friend. I know, u just tell me the fact but thats not the point here. If i am even the smartest human in this world, u should encourage me to work hard, so i can go further but not stopping me, so i can walk beside you.
see, i'm blaming my friend despite its absolutely my own fault. *sigh*
Maybe, i should have room mate but i'm afraid she will hate me. there is part of me that i dont wanna show to anyone. My last roommate hate me, treat me badly because of that part me. I dont want myself get hurt again.
or Should i get married? so someone will kick me off the bed and keep babbling until i make him a breakfast. That kind of great idea but the problem is who will marry me? and who the hell will get marry just because to wake up early. totally insane!!!
arghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh........
i mess up my own future!!!!
SOS!!!!!i really want to cry right now.
p/s: i absolutely doesnt need any pieces of advice. I dont even know, what i really need.
2010
Tuesday, May 4, 2010
wow...lama gile xtlis dlm blog ni..nmpak usang je...tpi nak wat cmne, ngah busy...
i'll try to update this blog before end of july..hehe
i'll try to update this blog before end of july..hehe
jason mraz-life is wonderful
Wednesday, October 28, 2009
It takes a crane to build a crane
It takes two floors to make a storie
It takes an egg to make a hen
It takes a hen to make an egg
There is no end to what I'm saying
It takes a thought to make a word
And it takes some words to make an action
And it takes some work to make it work
It takes some good to make it hurt
It takes some bad for satisfaction
Ah la la la la la la life is wonderful
Ah la la la la la la life goes full circle
Ah la la la la life is wonderful
Ah la la la la la
It takes a night to make it done
And it takes a day to make you young brother
And it takes some old to make you young
It takes some cold to know the sun
It takes the one to have the other
And it takes no time to fall in love
But it takes you years to know what love is
And it takes some fears before i trust
It takes those tears to make it rust
It takes the rust to have it polished
Ah la la la la la la life is wonderful
Ah la la la la la la life goes full circle
Ah la la la la la la life is wonderful
Ah la la la la
It takes some silence to make sound
And it takes a lost before you found it
And it takes a road to go nowhere
It takes a toll to show you care
It takes a hole to see the mountain
Ah la la la la la life is wonderful
Ah la la la la la life goes full circle
Ah la la la la la la life is wonderful
Ah la la la la la life is meaningful
Ah la la la la la la life is wonderful
Ah la la la la la life is meaningful
Ah la la la la la la life is full of
Ah la la la la la life is so full of love
Ah la la la la la life is wonderful
Ah la la la la la la life is meaningful
Ah la la la la la life is full of
Ah la la la la la life is so full of love
quote from some website,i'm just too lazy to comment bout this song.hehe
"It's not even about being meaningful or cheesy but what Mraz has done here is put all the blindly obvious things about the world in here to show you how meaningFUL the seemingly meaningLESS things are and appreciate everything about the world and how it works. I think it's an effective song and shows you how the things you don't ever think about (eg, the lyrics "It takes some good to make it hurt, it takes some bad for satisfaction") make everything work in the world. I think it's beautiful and it shows that there are people who just take the world for what it is and appreciate the good and take the good with the bad. It's all about language and anyone who doesn't understand what I mean by that, go on wiki and look at "logical positivism". Most people just don't realise how actions affect everything.. Good work Jason Mraz!"
It takes two floors to make a storie
It takes an egg to make a hen
It takes a hen to make an egg
There is no end to what I'm saying
It takes a thought to make a word
And it takes some words to make an action
And it takes some work to make it work
It takes some good to make it hurt
It takes some bad for satisfaction
Ah la la la la la la life is wonderful
Ah la la la la la la life goes full circle
Ah la la la la life is wonderful
Ah la la la la la
It takes a night to make it done
And it takes a day to make you young brother
And it takes some old to make you young
It takes some cold to know the sun
It takes the one to have the other
And it takes no time to fall in love
But it takes you years to know what love is
And it takes some fears before i trust
It takes those tears to make it rust
It takes the rust to have it polished
Ah la la la la la la life is wonderful
Ah la la la la la la life goes full circle
Ah la la la la la la life is wonderful
Ah la la la la
It takes some silence to make sound
And it takes a lost before you found it
And it takes a road to go nowhere
It takes a toll to show you care
It takes a hole to see the mountain
Ah la la la la la life is wonderful
Ah la la la la la life goes full circle
Ah la la la la la la life is wonderful
Ah la la la la la life is meaningful
Ah la la la la la la life is wonderful
Ah la la la la la life is meaningful
Ah la la la la la la life is full of
Ah la la la la la life is so full of love
Ah la la la la la life is wonderful
Ah la la la la la la life is meaningful
Ah la la la la la life is full of
Ah la la la la la life is so full of love
quote from some website,i'm just too lazy to comment bout this song.hehe
"It's not even about being meaningful or cheesy but what Mraz has done here is put all the blindly obvious things about the world in here to show you how meaningFUL the seemingly meaningLESS things are and appreciate everything about the world and how it works. I think it's an effective song and shows you how the things you don't ever think about (eg, the lyrics "It takes some good to make it hurt, it takes some bad for satisfaction") make everything work in the world. I think it's beautiful and it shows that there are people who just take the world for what it is and appreciate the good and take the good with the bad. It's all about language and anyone who doesn't understand what I mean by that, go on wiki and look at "logical positivism". Most people just don't realise how actions affect everything.. Good work Jason Mraz!"
jelmakanlah ayumu
Monday, October 26, 2009
Ya Habibi Bi Ya Maulana [2x]
Jauh tapi dekat tak terpandang
Dekat tapi hampir tak tersentuh
Indah tak terhias
Cantiknya tidak ternilai
Bila masa akan terbongkar
Asalnya bukan sembarangn
Benihnya dari rentak zaman
Nafsu terbunuh bergelimpangan
Mabuk perantau keasyikan
Bonda jelmakanlah ayumu
Aku khayal manisnya
Lama tapi baru mempersonakan
Usang tapi masih berkilauan
Tidak reput hujan
Tidak lekang dek panas
Lembut tidak perlu dilentur
Asalnya bukan sembarangn
Benihnya dari rentak zaman
Nafsu terbunuh bergelimpangan
Mabuk perantau keasyikan
Bonda jelmakanlah ayumu
Aku khayal manisnya
Jangan menung kebingungan nanti
Satu kasih sempurna cintamu
Jangan rindu ketayangan diri
Terang arah pusaka menungu
Mari bersama meraikan
Ayik irama dan ragamnya
Biarkan malam mempersona
Sepantun berlanggam lagu bonda
Jauh tapi dekat tak terpandang
Dekat tapi hampir tak tersentuh
Indah tak terhias
Cantiknya tidak ternilai
Bila masa akan terbongkar
Asalnya bukan sembarangn
Benihnya dari rentak zaman
Nafsu terbunuh bergelimpangan
Mabuk perantau keasyikan
Bonda jelmakanlah ayumu
Aku khayal manisnya
Lama tapi baru mempersonakan
Usang tapi masih berkilauan
Tidak reput hujan
Tidak lekang dek panas
Lembut tidak perlu dilentur
Asalnya bukan sembarangn
Benihnya dari rentak zaman
Nafsu terbunuh bergelimpangan
Mabuk perantau keasyikan
Bonda jelmakanlah ayumu
Aku khayal manisnya
Jangan menung kebingungan nanti
Satu kasih sempurna cintamu
Jangan rindu ketayangan diri
Terang arah pusaka menungu
Mari bersama meraikan
Ayik irama dan ragamnya
Biarkan malam mempersona
Sepantun berlanggam lagu bonda
tentang hati
Sunday, October 4, 2009
dlm byk2 soalan dlm dunia ni, soalan tentang hati yg paling sush,soklan letrik lagi seng kot..hahaha...tpi kenapa?? mungkin sbb jwpannye terlalu subjektif dan pergantungannya pada manusia juga keadaan..
walau kita tanye seribu org, masih sukar mencari jawapan yang sebenar, mungin juga persoalannya semakin bertambah..apa yang harus dilakukan? entahlah, aku sendiri masih mencari. namun bagi aku, aku lebih suka menggunakan setiap pancaindera yang ada untuk mengerti semua ini.
ya, aku akan bertanya pendapat manusia lain tapi selalunya aku xdapat menerima segalanya kerana aku faham setiap insan itu unik dari segi pemikiran dan peribadi. aku juga faham jawapannya ada pada aku,cuma aku harus bijak menggunakan akal yang diberi.
orang bijak pandai ada berkata, "jangan ikut hati,ikut hati mati",ada benarnya tapi tahukah kita, perkara pertama yang terdetik dalam hati adalah jawapan namun seringkali dicemari dengan bisikan syaitan, nafsu-nafsi, dan akal yang logikal. oleh sebab kesukaran untuk menepis semua inilah, kita gunakan akal yang rasional berpandukan ajaran islam. prinsip inilah yang aku pegang selama ini.
kini, semakin aku sedar betapa pentingnya hati dalam diri manusia. bagaimana harus ku jaga hati ini supaya bersih dari noda? ada aku temui beberapa jawapan tentang persoalan itu namun entah mengapa terlalu berat untuk aku ikuti, rebung sudah menjadi buluh, semestinya sukar untuk dibentuk.
Persoalan tentang hati tak mungkin kan terjawap andai pintunya tertutup. Ramai yang sudah menemukan jawapan tetapi tegar untuk menerima kerana takut akan kehilangan sesuatu yang mereka sendiri tidak pasti. bukalah hati, jangan takut pada akibat yang menanti kerana walau apa pun jalan yang dipilih pasti ada dugaannya. Tiada satu perkara pun dalam dunia ini yang percuma, setiap tindakan pasti ada balasan walaupun hanya sebesar biji zarah. jangan sekali-kali lupa setiap keputusan pasti akan mempengaruhi manusia dan keadaan sekeliling, jadi fikirkanlah sedalam-dalamnya.
andai satu masa xmampu lagi menahan segalanya, adulah pada sang pencipta kerana hanya DIA yang Maha Mengetahui dan hanya DIA yang Maha Memahami. Cinta manusia hanya sementara, kadang membawa ke syurga, kadang ke neraka tapi cinta pada ALLAH yang Maha ESA, syurga lah tempat kita. Tepuk dada tanyalah iman.
Mengapa sentiasa diri diuji? Mengapa dalam lautan manusia, hati ini yang derita? kerana setiap ujian mematangkan, tanda kasih pemilik seluruh Cinta pada hambaNya. jangan mengeluh Sarah, dirimu beruntung kerana Dia masih mahu mendidik mu, ramai insan yang dibiar hanyut dalam syurga dunia. Setiap kali aku terkenang kesusahan yang kulalui, aku rasa semakin teguh, seteguh karang dilautan,semakin kuat, sekuat buluh di hutan.
semoga ketabahan ini berpanjangan agar diri tidak tersungkur di pintu syurga.
nukilan : sarah....peace!
walau kita tanye seribu org, masih sukar mencari jawapan yang sebenar, mungin juga persoalannya semakin bertambah..apa yang harus dilakukan? entahlah, aku sendiri masih mencari. namun bagi aku, aku lebih suka menggunakan setiap pancaindera yang ada untuk mengerti semua ini.
ya, aku akan bertanya pendapat manusia lain tapi selalunya aku xdapat menerima segalanya kerana aku faham setiap insan itu unik dari segi pemikiran dan peribadi. aku juga faham jawapannya ada pada aku,cuma aku harus bijak menggunakan akal yang diberi.
orang bijak pandai ada berkata, "jangan ikut hati,ikut hati mati",ada benarnya tapi tahukah kita, perkara pertama yang terdetik dalam hati adalah jawapan namun seringkali dicemari dengan bisikan syaitan, nafsu-nafsi, dan akal yang logikal. oleh sebab kesukaran untuk menepis semua inilah, kita gunakan akal yang rasional berpandukan ajaran islam. prinsip inilah yang aku pegang selama ini.
kini, semakin aku sedar betapa pentingnya hati dalam diri manusia. bagaimana harus ku jaga hati ini supaya bersih dari noda? ada aku temui beberapa jawapan tentang persoalan itu namun entah mengapa terlalu berat untuk aku ikuti, rebung sudah menjadi buluh, semestinya sukar untuk dibentuk.
Persoalan tentang hati tak mungkin kan terjawap andai pintunya tertutup. Ramai yang sudah menemukan jawapan tetapi tegar untuk menerima kerana takut akan kehilangan sesuatu yang mereka sendiri tidak pasti. bukalah hati, jangan takut pada akibat yang menanti kerana walau apa pun jalan yang dipilih pasti ada dugaannya. Tiada satu perkara pun dalam dunia ini yang percuma, setiap tindakan pasti ada balasan walaupun hanya sebesar biji zarah. jangan sekali-kali lupa setiap keputusan pasti akan mempengaruhi manusia dan keadaan sekeliling, jadi fikirkanlah sedalam-dalamnya.
andai satu masa xmampu lagi menahan segalanya, adulah pada sang pencipta kerana hanya DIA yang Maha Mengetahui dan hanya DIA yang Maha Memahami. Cinta manusia hanya sementara, kadang membawa ke syurga, kadang ke neraka tapi cinta pada ALLAH yang Maha ESA, syurga lah tempat kita. Tepuk dada tanyalah iman.
Mengapa sentiasa diri diuji? Mengapa dalam lautan manusia, hati ini yang derita? kerana setiap ujian mematangkan, tanda kasih pemilik seluruh Cinta pada hambaNya. jangan mengeluh Sarah, dirimu beruntung kerana Dia masih mahu mendidik mu, ramai insan yang dibiar hanyut dalam syurga dunia. Setiap kali aku terkenang kesusahan yang kulalui, aku rasa semakin teguh, seteguh karang dilautan,semakin kuat, sekuat buluh di hutan.
semoga ketabahan ini berpanjangan agar diri tidak tersungkur di pintu syurga.
nukilan : sarah....peace!
Wednesday, September 30, 2009
gohae-confession by chi yul..but i like lee seung gi version. eventhough seung gi just debuted that time but his husky voice really make this beautiful song sounds extremely great..as usuall you can watch the video in youtube.
Romanization :
ojji-ham-ni-kka
ottohke hal-kkayo
kamhi jega-kamhi
kunyo-rul sarang-hamnida
choyonghi na jucha
na juchado mo-ru-ge
ijun chok sanda-nun kon
sarado chugun gomnida
sesange binando michyobo-il mo-seub-do
modu da alji-man
kuge duryo-jiman sarang-hamnida
odiye innayo
je yae-gi jongmal turrishinayo
kurom pi hallinun kayomsun
che sarangul algo kyoshin-gayo
yoso-hae juseyo
bol ha-shindamyon cho badul-kkeyo
hona konyomanun
jege kunyo hanaman hora-khae-chusoso
odiye innayo
je yae-gi jongmal turrishinayo
kurom pi hallinun kayomsun
che sarangul algo kyoshin-gayo
yoso-hae juseyo
bol ha-shindamyon cho badul-kkeyo
hona konyomanun
jege kunyo hanaman hora-khae-chusoso
i always sing this song in my bedroom, to my housemate if you wondering what the heck i'm singing all this time, this is the translation.
translation:
What happens now?
What exactly should I do?
I dare...dare to...
Love her
Quietly so that even ...
even I wouldn't know
to live as if i've forgotten
is to live a life of death
the criticism of the world
and appearing to be insane
i know of it all
but though i'm afraid I love her
Where are you?
Can you listen to what I'm saying?
Do you know of my pitiful bleeding love?
Please forgive me
If you'll punish me, I'll accept it
But...just her...
Please...just her... Please allow me to love
Where are you?
Can you listen to what I'm saying?
Do you know of my pitiful bleeding love?
Please forgive me
If you'll punish me, I'll accept it
But...just her...
Please...just her... Please allow me to love
** why i really love this song, despite of lee seung gi beautiful voice, the lyric also meaningful. its about this guy that lack in many things but accidentally fall in love with great girl. Its hard for him to love her but impossible to let her go. I remember one saying (maybe idiom) from 1 program that I watched, it sounds something like this "its imposibble for me to win but there is now way I should retreat", i'll watch my this program again to get the right sentence.
** why its meaningful? for me it is because i always favor something that unreachable either it is goods or guy. i mean i always like something that nearly impossible for me to get it. for instance, when i go to shopping, the clothes that i like must be so expensive, and that is why i always avoid myself go shopping.
** i really wish that i can sing this song beautifully. any idea to improve my voice without going to the vocal class.
Romanization :
ojji-ham-ni-kka
ottohke hal-kkayo
kamhi jega-kamhi
kunyo-rul sarang-hamnida
choyonghi na jucha
na juchado mo-ru-ge
ijun chok sanda-nun kon
sarado chugun gomnida
sesange binando michyobo-il mo-seub-do
modu da alji-man
kuge duryo-jiman sarang-hamnida
odiye innayo
je yae-gi jongmal turrishinayo
kurom pi hallinun kayomsun
che sarangul algo kyoshin-gayo
yoso-hae juseyo
bol ha-shindamyon cho badul-kkeyo
hona konyomanun
jege kunyo hanaman hora-khae-chusoso
odiye innayo
je yae-gi jongmal turrishinayo
kurom pi hallinun kayomsun
che sarangul algo kyoshin-gayo
yoso-hae juseyo
bol ha-shindamyon cho badul-kkeyo
hona konyomanun
jege kunyo hanaman hora-khae-chusoso
i always sing this song in my bedroom, to my housemate if you wondering what the heck i'm singing all this time, this is the translation.
translation:
What happens now?
What exactly should I do?
I dare...dare to...
Love her
Quietly so that even ...
even I wouldn't know
to live as if i've forgotten
is to live a life of death
the criticism of the world
and appearing to be insane
i know of it all
but though i'm afraid I love her
Where are you?
Can you listen to what I'm saying?
Do you know of my pitiful bleeding love?
Please forgive me
If you'll punish me, I'll accept it
But...just her...
Please...just her... Please allow me to love
Where are you?
Can you listen to what I'm saying?
Do you know of my pitiful bleeding love?
Please forgive me
If you'll punish me, I'll accept it
But...just her...
Please...just her... Please allow me to love
** why i really love this song, despite of lee seung gi beautiful voice, the lyric also meaningful. its about this guy that lack in many things but accidentally fall in love with great girl. Its hard for him to love her but impossible to let her go. I remember one saying (maybe idiom) from 1 program that I watched, it sounds something like this "its imposibble for me to win but there is now way I should retreat", i'll watch my this program again to get the right sentence.
** why its meaningful? for me it is because i always favor something that unreachable either it is goods or guy. i mean i always like something that nearly impossible for me to get it. for instance, when i go to shopping, the clothes that i like must be so expensive, and that is why i always avoid myself go shopping.
** i really wish that i can sing this song beautifully. any idea to improve my voice without going to the vocal class.
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