Human in Me

Under the shadow of the night
I found the human in me

An ordinary human
that question the meaning of life
the meaning of my own existence.

Do I like a wind? complete yet empty
Maybe a star, luminious just from a far.

I stand on my ground
I seek advice, only when I intent to abide
I seek truth, at time of courage
Do I resemble earth? or perhaps sand?

When there is no more hope
I wrapped by fear
Let I shed bloods, tears and sweat
than surrender to devil.

The human in me
lacerate my heart
As I live myself in ignorant

**This poem is a mess just like me.