Warna Hidup

Hidup punya warna, biar pudar jangan gelita,

Di atas jalan hidup, 

Jangan malu hidup berhenti bertanya

Jangan segan menghulur tangan

Lampu-lampu harapan memerangi kegagalan,

lalu bercambah impian, bertambah iman,

menjadi akar pohon hidup manusia.

Fever

Its my first week of a very short holidays. The first 2 days, i was down for stomachache and now i have a fever.

Originally, i plan to do photo editing and make a bookmark. Unfortunately, i cant do it until i fully recover.

However, tonight, despite my headache, i manage to capture and edit a photo of my cat, Mao.

I love her so much. If you look at her face, she seems distant and arrogant but actually she such a cute cat. I never have a cat that so obidient like her. She will come whenever i call her, she will accompany when i stay up late watching tv and always cone to bed with me.

She is not a very tame cat and everytime i try to lock her up, she will get away. As a cat, she is a very skillful rat catcher and lizard killer.

When we were playing, i did get injured sometimes but i dont mind at all because for me a cat should behave as one. Im not someone who will bath their cat, trim its nail and make it wear clothes or bow.

I name her Mao because she likes to 'meow'. This is a picture of her. My cat, my friend, my loyal companion.

Kini Aku Mengerti Hatimu. Maaf

Recently, i watch LOVERS because its a good drama and i want to enjoy it. I did enjoy it but it also make me thinking.

Orang kata, perempuan ni emotional, mudah sgt terasa hati. Indeed. That makes man and woman different. Besides, that emotion make man attract to women

Tapi macam mana kalau terlebih emosi? Dalam cerita itu, heroin kedua selalu menangis depan hero sebab hero selalu sakitkan hati dia dan sebab hidup dia sangat kasihan. Tapi lepas seketika, rasa macam melampau lah pula, kesian hero tak faham dengan apa yang berlaku. Hero cuba buat heroin kedua tu gembira tapi perempuan tu asyik menangis.

In life, crying too much is not good. I dont like it. Its true tears are woman's weapon but we have to use it wisely. The weapon will turn into a burden if its too much.

It makes me think, why we keep blaming people for our suffering, why not just swallow its all and smile? Bukan senang tapi bukan mustahil.

Why dont try being tolerate. Try to understand others then we can gain peace.

Aku pernah buat silap dalam menterjemah hati manusia.
Aku biarkan dia tanggung semua kesalahan.
Sedangkan salah itu atas aku.
Tetap berdegil, aku lemparkan soalan
Terlalu susah kah untuk peduli
Tapi sebenarnya aku yang tidak
Memperduli kata hatinya
Aku salahkan lagi, tidak kah kau mengerti susahku ini
Tapi aku yang tidak tahu susahnya dia
Menurut kemahuan seseorang yang asyik meminta
Tetapi tidak pernah memberi.
Maafkan aku.

Wisdom comes the hard away

Last year many of my friends graduated and this year too. Well, its a lie if I said I dont feel jealous because I am! there is time that I want to close all the doors so I wont hear any of that news again, but I didnt. Why? because I proud of myself

Its true, I make a grand plan for my future before, and things turn not exactly how I want it to be. I fell pretty hard and its so hard to stand up again,  but I did it. Its not easy and I'm not all strong. but still I'm proud of myself.

You know, no matter how perfect your plan is, always prepare to fail. I'm not saying that we should choose to fail but being prepared is important. Its true, we should burn the bridges down in order to succeed but if you fail, what should you do then? Crying your heart out at the bank while hoping some prince charming help you? Reality is not that sweet, dear. At the end, all you have is yourself.

You have to wake up, stand up and find a way to move on. Maybe, you can search for another path or build a small plane to cross the river, or swim to the other side. See, you have a lot choice, and if you make a wrong one, make another choice. Hope is always there as long as we breathe. Remember, there is many paths to get to our destination, so if you found out that the path you choose is a mistake, dont feel down, keep walking, who knows what will you find there.

Dont be afraid, dont be scare when you make a mistake. We are human, thats what we do. Make a mistake, get through it and hopefully one day we can laugh about it. Open your eyes to many possibilities, and open your heart to many pains. Through this painful moment, we can discover our true strength, we can clearly see between friends and foes, then maybe you can find your true love. Always open your heart.

We may wearing the same clothes, we may happen to choose the same path but there is no guarantee we will arrive at the same destination. Who knows what fate plan for us.

Extraordinary people dont give up. They never stop working, living their live until they died. Even after they died, their legacy will be carried by others. so thus their wisdom.

For my friends who still fighting for their degree or diploma, Ganbatte Kudasai! Work hard will be paid.There is time that you feel tired and want to give up but listen carefully to your heart, what exactly do you want in your life. If you cant find your answer, well, its a tough case.

For my friends who just graduated, or will be, congratulation! You deserve it! Enjoy that great moment and never stop working hard. And, yes, get yourself prepare for the next stage of your life. Maybe get yourself a book about build a career, coping with co-worker or dealing with scary boss. Nevertheless, never forget to look down when you way up, who knows one day you will tumble down. I'm not trying to scare you. What i'm trying to tell you is having a degree is not a guarantee that you are better than anybody else. Listen to what other people tell you even if they just a janitor. If you want a respect you have to earn it.

Its a journey that bring people together,

Its a journey that bring all the joys and pains

In this journey we found love and hatred

and in this journey I found you.

When you arrive to your destination

Please remember what we have been through

The smile and the tears that we share together

and the most important thing is

Please remember....me.

"I learned what optimism really is: it's knowing that the more painful the event, the more profound the lessons. There are so many lessons in this life we just dont want to learn. You just cant tell someone these things and expect him to become wise. Wisdom only comes the hard way." - Dan Baker, psychologist.

Journey to the edge of Melbourne

Yesterday, my friend read my blog and said that most of my posts have gloomy feeling in it. I cant be more agree. Before this, I usually write in here when i feel bad but not anymore. Nowadays, its more about sharing my passion, imagination and my own world. Lets be clear not all of my posts are about me and of coz not all about him.

Without further due, i want to share with you one happy story, a story of real me....

This is me, not really a looker but I always try to believe I am..hahahaha

This was taken at Melbourne Zoo during my first year in Monash. At that time I went out with my frens since our day in Uniten Bangi

This is either when we waiting for the tram or we got lost.

It was hot that day and drained our energy out..hehehe..sorry for his pose

This is at the japanese garden in the Melbourne zoo. Its small but really beautiful (consider I never went to Japan so..). That guy is my fren who doing bachelor of science. Smart guy but can be annoying some time..hahahaha..If he ever read this, Im sorry and congratulation for your engagement with Far. Why we took the picture together? well, actually, at the beginning I was alone but then he came to inter frame. Hahahaha

After that, we went to melbourne city and spent our evening along Yarra River, my favorite place in the city.

And this is my fren, Azizul. He is a very nice guy and gentle too. But somehow, he seems distant or maybe I'm the one that being distant? Anyway, I like being fren with him and hope someday we will meet again. Oh yes, the background of this picture is a beautiful bridge, connected flinder street station and Eureka tower.

Its a street monkey!!! I read it once in the comic and I cant believe i can finally see it with my own eye. That red-shirt guy really are AMAZING.

See!! He walks from end to end without falling!!sugoih~~

After that, we went up to Eureka tower to watch the sunset and experience the scary box of Eureka. You will get into this square room, then something is moving, then the whole room become seeing-through glass. You look at your feet and you see the ground and you are highhhhhh way up.

We dont have the picture in that box, but this is me at the top of the Eureka. I can see the whole melbourne city from up there and the feeling is just unspeakable.

Nevertheless, we got the souvenir and went home with a happy face and soaring feet. It was a great experience, a great day I spent with you guys, and I will always treasured this. I feel glad that this memory that we etched in all the photos are still with me even after 3 years. We definitely survived the edge of melbourne and despite we end up in different destination, what truly valuable is the Journey. Thank YOU

WE ALL SURVIVED THE EDGE

 

 

Perfect love is illusion

At first, I thought I was dreaming when you said you like me too...

 

It was so amazing, you and I together soaring the sky, reaching for eternity love

But then, everything break apart, shattered the love that we build together

And now, I realised perfect love is an illusion, love is gone when all the excitement gone

What left is a memory of you, me and our perfect love

 

Love is complicated.

"A soul mate is…someone whose way of viewing life is not necessarily the same as yours but complements yours, so that there is not a compromise, there is a complement." ~ Paul Robear.

As J reading this, she starts to regret leaving Y behind. Is that a mistake? If it is, can he forgives me and accept me back?

Or, did i already lost the love of my life?

J knows she have to get back to Y as soon as possible but she dont want to rush things. She is the one who ask this break. With that, she persever

Meanwhile, Y get himself busy even more and try to forget J. He still furious. He still cant understand why J leave him after all the effort he puts in to build a great life for her. He works hard every day.

Suddenly, J's smile come to his mind and how much he miss that smile. He miss her. Will she come back to me? He asks himself the question that only time can determine the answer.

Life is complicated. Sometimes, love doesnt mean,stay. And love not always letting go. Sometimes, we hold things too dearly that unintentionally, we break it and hurt our hand that hold.

Oh how love is complicated.

J and Y look through the window of their respective house. The view is not the same but their mind synchoranize against miles. 'i miss you', the words echo in their heart.