Cinta si pemalu

Ada semalu dalam baju

Terkuncup tertutup terasa malu

Malu malu sungguh malu

Dikata benci rupanya rindu

Ada senda dalam tawa

Termengah mengah terhabis udara

Udara udara kumahu udara

Didepan mata dia bicara

Bicara dia penuh wibawa

Mahu melayu menghenti duka

Beransur dia menggenggam cita

Menjadi tuan di tanah pusaka

Harus Mana menanam padi

Menampi beras bagai menatang

Tuan disana hamba disini

Menanti jelas menghitung bintang

Deras helang melayang tinggi

Dari sisi terus ke awan

Dia pulang membawa hati 

Hati berisi isteri rupawan

Terbang merpati bawa berita

Berita kasih kahwin tak jadi

Terbang gagak bawa cerita

Cerita cinta memakan diri

Puas sudah hamba tertawa

Menunggu bulan mana kan gugur

Tinggal kasih cinta di bawa

Mencari teman buat menghibur

Buat Kamu Yang Bisu

Tajuk:    Indah Tawakal
Nukilan: Missysecret

Kalau aku khabar padamu

Sebuah cerita cinta

Berpaksi iman

Bertunjang tawakal

Pasti kau tidak percaya

Andai aku katakan padamu

Doa mengganti kata pujukan

Bisikan tasbih melawan rindu

Pasti kau menyindirku

Jika aku bicarakan padamu

Langkah ku kehatinya

Tersimpul bersama janji kepada yang Esa

Bahwa aku mahu ke syurga bersama

Pasti kau berlalu pergi

Dan mengganggap ku gila

Antara gila dan putus asa

Antara putus asa dan keindahan tawakal

Ibarat cahaya dalam kegelapan

Buat dirinya berkeliling indah 

Aku pamerkan sederhana 

Wajah sebenar tanpa topeng 

Biar dia tidak menyukai asal tidak membenci

Hatiku, hatinya milik Allah

Pemilik segala cinta

Harus Dia yang menentukan

Tertuliskah diLauh Mahfuz jodoh ini

Atau hanya anganan dara di malam gelita

Hanya padaMu Allah aku berserah

Bukan pada bulan kaku,

Bukan pada angin lalu, 

Bahkan bukan pada kau yang bisu

Biasa

Biasa, terlalu biasa

Aku mencinta tanpa dicinta

Biasa, terlalu biasa

Aku sunyi dalam ramai

Biasa, terlalu biasa

Aku tak dapat apa dicita

Biasa terlalu biasa

Aku terlepas apa digenggam

Biasa terlalu biasa

Aku megemudi lautan sendiri

Biasa terlalu biasa

Kecewa datang selepas senyuman

Tangisan datang selepas ketawa

Kerana terlalu biasa

Aku terlupa

Tangan untuk memegang

Kaki untuk melangkah

Mata untuk melihat

Telinga untuk mendengar

Akal untul berfikir

Badan untuk bertindak

Dan hati untuk beriman

Aku terlupa

Mengucap tasbih, tahmid dan takbir

Segala puji kepada ilahi

Yang menciptakan dan menentukan

Rezeki dan takdir diri ini

Sungguh aku terlupa

Nikmat diberi didahului rahmat

Ampunan dikurnia sebelum murka

Jangan, jangan biasa

Hanyut, leka syurga dunia

Sedang nanti neraka menanti

Jangan, jangan biasa

Lupakan tuhan, tepikan agama

Murka Allah, mana nak lari

Jangan, jangan biasa

Merintih menyoal nasib diri

Nikmat diberi tak dipeduli

Jangan, jangan biasa

Jadi manusia pelupa

Hidup tak bermakna, mati sia-sia

Neraka jadi rumah abadi. 

Tidak, aku tak mahu biasa lagi

Jodoh dari Allah

Mereka ketawa, mereka menyeringai, mereka berkata

Mungkin kau jodohku

Terperosok aku tersipu

Dalam ketawa aku menangis

Dalam tangis aku ketawa

Seluruh jiwa bersatu bicara

Mereka bukan tuhan

Tatkala basah wuduk damai menyejuk

Sujudku lama mohon ampunan

Kerana terbuai cinta dunia

Khusyukku satu raih kekuatan

cinta dunia bawa ke syurga

Dalam zikir, tahmid dan takbir

Doaku sisip agar tenang lara

Tiada penolong sebaik Dia

Masa bergilir sepi

Tapi aku tetap damai

Redha sudah sebati

Andai benar kata mereka,

Akan ku jaga dirimu setulus jiwa

Andai benar telah disangkal,

Akan ku jaga hati dan iman

Cuma satu kekal sama

Allah melindungi dan menyayangiMu

Walau dimana engkau berada

Terbanglah kembali

Senyummu, tawamu, suaramu

Ibarat ribut dalam hati

Goyah cuba berpegang

Tetap terbang melayang

Dibuai indahmu

Kala kau jauh

Bintang menemani

Matahari mengusik

angin menyapa

Lalu ku titipkan rasa rindu

Buatmu di sana

Oh tuhan,

Sakit tersimpul dalam hati galau

Ayat-ayat cinta Pemilik Cinta

Tawar tenang bawa senyum

Cinta menjadi iman

Subur yakin kepada Yang Maha Penyayang

Biar masa seperti air mengalir

Terus ke hilir tanpa berundur

Purnama menjadi sabit

Sabit putar berbalik

Tetap kaki terpasak dibumi

Menanti dirimu segera hadir

Andai senyummu kelat,

Tawamu pahit,

Suaramu hilang,

Ia tetap ribut dalam hati

Ribut damai bawa pelangi

Indah dirimu tidakkan pudar

2nd day experience

There are few interesting thing happen today. 

1. There are one guy critics me for saying 'tu je' instead of 'satu je'. Quiet taken back, i reply ok. I dont know whether he thinks i was being rude or he just joking. 

2. Another guy ask me about security working in 7E. Due to CNY, our small town looks like being deserted. It must be dangerous to work there and seeing me alone, he expressed his concern. At first, it feels more like a warning. Maybe i read too much of crime novel, at that time i thought he was going to rob the store and giving warning before hand because he feel overconfidence. But at that same time, it occured to me that he maybe just worried. Anyway, the concern and the warning make me lose my focus and i close register without take out his change. Fortunately, i manage to handlee the situation even though not in the way it should be. 

3. Another incident, because i feel hungry and dizzy, i forgot to give 20cents to a guy where it should be 48.20. He told me that because he worried i'm going to have short in money due to my mistake. So he gave me RM1.00 to cover it up and walk away fastly after that before i can stop him. The queue was quite long and many people were waiting  so i have to hold to that rm1. 

4. Right after rm1's guy, there was a girl ask me to scan a pack of nacho because she wants to know the price. so i did it thinking that she was going to buy it. Then suddenly she said no and want to put it back. Of course it is wrong. Once the product was scan there is no other way to erase it, not that i know, for sure. During the job training, my teacher told me to put it away and wait until someone buy it. 

That makes me thinking, there is a guy who give me one ringgit because he worried i will have short in money and there is a girl who were asking me to scan an item but then do not want to pay for it. Why a guy being nice to me, a girl, opposite gender while another girl cause me trouble. She should be nice to me as a fellow sister. Anyway, she is not my friend and she do not know the consequences of her action. I should told her off. 

So thats a few weird incident on my 2nd day of work at 7E. Hopefully tomorrow will be better and my back pain go away. Oh, another 8 hours pf standing. Sniff. 

Written words

The advance technology has shone light to us to a new way of conversation but is it better than previous method or makes human relationship get worse?

Many of us aware of the effect of social media such as facebook. It makes million miles feel like next room. Many of us also aware its negative effect. 

I would like to share a story of me and my family and whatsapp. When whatsapp arise to fame in malaysia not long ago, everyone need to have whatsapp account just like they need facebook. My family is not the exception. Frankly speaking, having indulge in the networking earlier than everyone in my family makes me not so keen to create whatsapp account but they force me to do it. Anyway, its all start with a good cause;to bring everyone that miles apart closer and to share information and to convey message to every one. 

However, the goodness of whatsapp deem and here comes the evil. Some start to use it to critics others. They call it advise (doesnot seem like one for me). For instance, my brother screw up so my other sisters give him 'advice' in that group chat. For me its like scolding a person in front of everyone and i really hate it. Its keep happening to a point where few members of my family 'advice' another member. Group scolding session. 

Why they keep doing it? Because they think its healthy, its what siblings do. Helping each other out and taking care of each other. Yes, after all the advices given they did make up. But thats not for me. I dont think its healthy. Seriously not. What they did is hindering the subject, denying anything happen and take it all as a siblings act. How about all the means word thrown out? Is it just dissappeared. Its still in that group chat for everyone to see. 

I dont understand. Maybe this is how adult deals with problem. I think its stupid and it push the relationship into a verge of breaking up. I believe that all those words written down is not gonna disappear into a thin air, someday it will come back and haunt down the one who write. 

Yes. I am a bit piss off. They misunderstood my condition and critics my reading hobby. Do they know why I read? Do they know why I hardly call my mom nowadays? Do they know why i havenot visit my mom for 2 weeks? No they dont. And i have no intention to tell them my reasons as i know they will regard it as excuses. 

They are my family and i love them but i think they have to stop whatsapping before something bad really happen. 

 

From my point of view, whatsapp is now drifting us apart if not all of us at least I am.

So readers, technology changes our method of communicating but the essence of human heart is still the same. Choose your words wisely, either its written or spoken, use it well.