dont cry ---- ulji anhayo......

01. And…(Holding Back The Tears) (Dong Bang Shin Gi)
translation by: o2_intake (also credit: aheeyah.com)

A picture that gets smeared in white
And my fragrance that seems to have faded away
All get concealed by the glaring cloud

My heart that has no words
Slowly starts to move my feelings
Those times that slipped through
Are in my hands

I'm holding back the tears
I walk trying to lessen the weight of my heart
To a place that is neither close nor far
Where a different me stands
I will not cry

I bring my two hands together again
To a place that will hear it
As I live though these unmemorable times

Though it seems stupid, we’re always together
The pain that I want to let go
Dries the tears that flows through my body

I'm living with my tears
I walk trying to lessen the weight of my heart
To a place that is neither close nor far
Where a different me stands
I will not cry

I'm holding back the tears
I run adding to the weight of my faith
To a place that is neither high nor low
Where a different me stands again
With a small smile I can laugh

action movies

salam...just finish 2 papers n there is 2 more papers next week n the follwing weeks.

Because i'm so stressed with my dynamic paper,yesterday I watch H.I.T(homicide investigation team. Yes, it is police story from korea. However that drama dont really show police works, it just about team work, police dilemma, principles and some romance. The main character is a woman that have a very bad temper but as a cop she has a good instinct. I dont know if thats the real character like in the script or the actress exaggerated in her acting. Why the heck, she always get suprised everytime she got reports from her subordinate. Well, as a police, she already had a lot of experience, doesnt need to show suprised face everytime. Other than that, she is great in fighting scenes.

I like action movies and drama especially from hong kong or china. The plot, the fight, the emotion are lot better than other action movies eventhough sometimes its not make sense. English movie is good too but they too rely on weapon. I favor fist fight more like kung fu. In chinese action movie, you can see the plot is unpredictable and really twisted. The actor and actress so cool too. My favourite character is someone who are the brain of the team, really sensitive to even a smallest detail. I guess that was lack in H.I.T, the planner.

Dragon squad, the latest action movie that I watched. The acting scenes were great and look real even there is some scenes that too violent but the good characters seem so weak. They supposed to be one of the best in their police department. Yes they are great shooter and fighter but they seem lost. What I'm trying too say is, they have no strategies to catch the criminals and just busted in. You can see it in many scenes, such a waste. But it still a good movie for me.

i gotta go now. c ya..salam

colddddd~~

Skunk kul 1.26 am...kat luar 2 cam ribut je..kuat tul angin...huuuu..bosan..kayla da offline..akak aku pun da offline..tggl la aku sensorg..huhu..k.alia kat sblah ngah gayut dlm tepon..nak gayut gak tpi ngan spe??huuuuuu..bocan..

study?otak da mampat wat soklan dynmic.esk lak k..

tdo?xrase nak tdo lagi..

nk wat pe yek..sejuk tul hari ni...kaki aku wpn pkai stoking ttp mmbeku..stkg ni pun da sjuk..

tgk utube?xtau nak tgk pe da dlm utube 2..hehe..

kwn2 ku..dmane kamu...

ble tgok gambr2 lame..memori pun stat menayang satu dmi satu..best tul zmn skool dulu..kwn2 kat skliling..mcm2 pristwa yg blaku..ketawa,menangis,bergaduh...aku rindu itu sume..

kat cni aku xdpt ke sume 2?hehe..dpt je..tp zmn skool lagi indah..kat cni..hmph..

pgi kuliah..blik kuliah..sensorg..kdg2 ngan ila or housemte..tp mostly sensorg..dlm bilik kuliah g bsr 2..aku knl sorg je manusia iaitu aku sndiri..kiri kanan kosng je..huhu..korg pun da bsn dgr aku merungt..aku pun bosan..asl tlis blog je msti bnde xbest..

aku nak enjy collge life tp cmne??xde idea la..cmne la collge life korg kat msia yek..ms aku kat uniten dulu best gak tp kalu lagi bebs lagi best..yg menambahkan lagi best ialah kalu aku ade kerta..leh gi lepak mane2 kalu stress..gi men bowlg kul 1 pgi ke pas2 xleh masuk uniten..lwak2

mase 2 aku bru blik mkn kat upten(cafe uniten), pakai pun sempoi je la, ngan slipar jepun..on da way blik 2, siti ajk aku men bowlg kat mine..mase 2 da kul 10 kot. aku pun bosan xtau nak watpe..stuju jela...aku,ct,k.husna,k.fi2, ngan syafiq(drver)..

smpi sne owg lak rmai..weekend la ktekan..tggu punye tggu, turn kitaorg kul 1..mase 2 ayam ngan jay pun join gak..kitaorg men 2 round kot..xingt lak aku,yg aku ingt bola aku asik mask longkang..nyampah..ct la star..time turn owg len, dia tdo pas2 bgun tuk turn dia je...asik strike je..ape la ilmu ko pkai ct..aku try tdo sblm bling bola 2, xmnjadi pun..

da abih men..ktaorg gi mkn kat fifteen..kat area c2 la jugak..mase tul da kul 2..bdk ni la lapo gile..gi kat kdai mamak..majorti llaki..kitaorg yg pompuan ni da cuak da..tp wat muka slmbe je+muka lapo..sdp gak mamak 2 mask..oh ye..tersermpak ngan haikal kt c2..mlu gak ngan dia..ye la..pompuan kuar mlm2..xbek tul anak dare..tp 2 1st time aku wat tau..jgn slh paham lak..aku bek tau..hahahahah

abis makn, nak msuk uniten..pntu pgr da ttp..kalu nak msk kne soal ngan pak guard.. jay ngan ayam je lps sbb dorg nek motor..kitaorg yg da xde hala tju ni pun lepak la kat petronas brdekatan smpi kul 5(pntu pgr bkak)...nyamuk da la byk..mmg aku xley tdo..last2 aku men hp ngan k.fi2..smbil hrup udara mlm yg sggh menyegarkan..

2la one of the sweet memory kat unitn..yela..kat kampg mane brani kuar mlm..seram..

xtau la aku pnah cite x dlm blog ni..tp xpela..xde mende nak cite da..ni je yg ade..saat2 kenakalan aku di masa remaja..wakakaka..

da dkt kul 2, k.alia pun da nak tdo..so aku pun kene tdo..esk ade date ngan ila..hehe..da la last date ngan ila aku lewt 2 jam..nsb bek ila bek..kalu owg le,da lame aku kene mrah..hehe..

k la..gudnite..sleep tight n lets meet in dream..hehe..dream yg bek la..ade lak smlm aku mmpi husband aku kne ramps pas2 ade gangster carik dia jgak..last2 dia kne tgkap..dua org lak tu nak rmpas dia(makck aku ngan pompuan mane tah) brpakt ngan gangster 2 culik dia..huhu..my hubby..mlm ni smbg lak operasi menyelamat my hubby..hehe..sape nk tolong leh jumpe aku dlm mmpi..

k nite..my reader(mcm la ade)...salam..

Cinderella

by Tata Young



When I was just a little girl

My momma used to tuck me into bed and she read me a story

It always was about a Princess in distress

And how a guy would save her and end up with the glory


I'd lie in bed and think about the person that I wanted to be

Then one day I realized the fairy tale life wasn't for me


(Chorus)


I don't wanna be like Cinderella


Sittin' in a dark old dusty cellar


Waiting for somebody, to come and set me free


I don't wanna be like Snow White waiting


For a handsome prince to come and save me


On a horse of white, unless we're riding side by side


Don't want to depend on no-one else

I'd rather rescue myself


Someday I'm gonna find someone who wants my soul, heart and mind

Who's not afraid to show that he loves me

Somebody who will understand I'm happy just the way I am

Don't need nobody taking care of me

I will be there for him just as strong as he, will be there for me

When I give myself then it has got to be, an equal thing


(Chorus)


I can slay, my own dragon

I can dream, my own dreams

My knight in shining armour is me

So I'm gonna set me free


(Chorus)

***Love this song's lyrics..I dont wanna be like Cinderella...hehehe...

***If I watch film or drama, I really hate heroins that too rely on hero and always ask 4 help..Isnt it too weak...Girls are not like that. We are strong, strong enough to stand on our own feet..

***Of coz, men and women need each other.

***Ummm..just like nodame( heroin nodame cantabile-japanese drama), I like her character. She has a lot of weakness and always depend on Chiaki senpai(hero) but she always try her best, never give up...Chiaki, like others hero, nearly perfect but...without nodame, he will stucks at the same place, and will never overcome his fears. without nodame, he will never reach his dream..

***That what heroin should be, strong enough to change one man.A meaningful presence, not only fill hero's lonely heart but help him fulfill his dream..yes!!that what a girl should be..

***As conclusion, men and women need each other(that why Allah created Adam and Eve, not Adam alone). They will never perfect as a person but can be perfect as a couple. To cover each other weakness..

**Sorry 4 my bad english, hope to make it better.. Really need to polish my english. It getting worse. Should I take english class?

Freedom

Lately, I watched a lot of DBSK (TVXQ) video, their performances or talk shows For those who dont know, they are famous idol group from Korea that created a big name in Japan and other Asian countries. Consist of 5 person, their vocal hormanizes really well, and their great dances mesmerized a lot of people. Why I suddenly changed to DBSK from Super Junior? Merely because of live performances. Not all Suju members can sing well, and I feel little irritated to Donghae's voice(one of suju member) . I dont think he gets a great voice but why he sings alot of part in Suju song. I'm sure others can sing better than him. hmmmm...

Back to DBSK, they have lot of fans all over Asia even in Malaysia. Their every moves will be captured in camera, I even saw fans stand outside their house, when they are in hometown. Fans are everywhere. It must be really great to have so much fans, but think it back, they actually lost their freedom. Fans also know their phone numbers and always give them a phone call. Jaejoong(one of DBSK member) said that everytime he gots a phone call, he will not say anything and just hang up. Sound so arrogant, but put yourselves in his shoes and you will understand. He also said that even when they only have 2-hours time to sleep, if they get a moments of total freedom, they will sacrifices their sleeping time as long as can get a fresh air such as go to the beach. Hard to understand? its hard for me to explain though.

Actually, I just want to say in this world, there always be action-reaction pair(Newton 3rd law's). when you get all attention, you lose freedoms. when you are becomes unknown, you craved for popularity. Even for me sometimes, I really want people pay attentions to me, listen to me and appraciated me. But when all the attentions on me, I turned my faces away and looking for spaces. Human never satisfied with what they got. Can I say ungrateful is human nature. Sometimes I think I'm crazy, when life going so smooth I want something bad happen, challenge me but when it really happend, I said life is unfair, why I have to face this.....How ungrateful I am.

What I feel so grateful now is, I have all the freedom, I can fly happily in this wide sky. Looking world in different ways and able to experienced new things. Can I really use this opportunities to the fullest?What have I done to reached my dreams? Nothing...huhuhu.. Even now, I should sleep and wake up early morning, go to class or study. but what I'm doing is write in this blog after wasting my times , playing computer games and watching videos in youtube. I can only see me as useless person not mention a lazy stupid girl. Frankly speaking, I hate myself, I try to changed it but, why I'm failed? will you help me?will you wake me up from this beautiful lies?

Its already 5.30 am and my body cant stand it anymore. I need to lay down even for a while. See you then..bye

GiVe Up

This time I really will give up EE..I got 0 again for quiz, when I look the statistic a lot of people get full mark..No words can describe how much I hate myself for not being able to understand it.

I know I'm not put real effort to stdy EE but.............ahhhh...so frustrated.. do I make wrong decision...thinking it will be easy..thinkg that I can do it....but now

Stuck again....How 2 describe this feeling? like darkness surround me,then there is a light but how fast I run to the light, it stills out of my hands. and now I rather stay in darkness to prevent myself getting hurt again n again.

Its raining inside...can I stop it? :'(

KeGilaaN

Sape gila?? Sape lagi aku r..hehehehe..

sbbnye : 1st - aku dgn slmbenye skunk ni mnulis utk blog pd wak2 kls dynamic..paham2 jela,aku ponteng.nak wat camne, kls 2 start kul 1, wak2 kritikal mate ngah layu...slalunye aku msk,duduk then tdo..mata cuma bukak kalu da abis lectr..hiii..so aku decide mls dtg kali ni..alah recorded lectre kan ade.hahaha..

sbb : 2nd - 2hri ni kls aku start kul 8 pgi n mmg ssh nak nmpak muke aku kat dlm hall wk2 tu sbb aku ngah membute atas katil..mula2 tu malu gak ngan dak laki sbb kantoi bgn lwt tp skunk da terbiase...hahahaha..truk x prgai ank dare ni..hee...aku pun xtau cmne nak baiki prgai bruk aku..wpun bgn sbuh kul 6 lbih, aku stil tdo lps 2 even sptutnye aku siap tuk kls kul 8..no matter wat time I slept night be4,pgi mmg cam2...ish3

sbb : 3rd - Skunk ni kemane aku pgi, asik terbyg gmbr dak2 super junior, kalu on9 je, msti nak tgk vidoe dorg or bce psl dorg..kat cyworld ke..oh ye, kalu nk tau ape i2 super junior, browse je dlm intrnet nescaye jumpe..xpun just type suju.. dorg lak skunk ni bru kuar albm bru n tgh byk join show kat korea..lagi la aku melekt ngan youtube....mlm tdi aku xsedar jam kul 1 lbih, kusyuk sgt tgk utube..pas2 golek punye golek atas katil, kul 3 pun aku xley lelap lagi..xtau la kul bape aku ttdo, nsb bek k.wani tlg kejt..kalu x, xtau la..

sbb : 4rd - aku nak gile tgk assgnmnt matlab..4 soklan je n 2 marks each tp ssh nye bkn men.. da la kene wat karangan lagi(wrtg aku mmg truk dr dulu..huhu). Byak mende nak stdy sbb final just around da corner tp...prasaan mls ni mkn truk..hidup da la terase bosn je..huuu..aku ckp kat fatin yg aku rase hdup aku bosn, die pun mcm mls nak lyn..mgkn cam xlogikk bile kite rase cm2 tp nak wat cmne mmg 2 yg aku rase.

Itula die 4 mende yg sdg menggile dlm diri aku skunk ni..huh..

ha..sblum aku mengundr diri, aku nak cerita 1 lawak psl kesengalan aku..

" aku msuk electrcl lab kul 9 pgi n lab pd hri ni kene gune kompter. aku duk kat tmpt aku, komptr blum on lagi.. aku ni cri la btg2 kat keyboard utk on komptr..xjumpe,pas2 aku cek2 kat desktop pun xley on gak komptr.. mamat yg duk sblh meja aku da pndg plik kat aku.. rosak ke comp ni??aku monologue sndri.. xpdt jwpn, aku tye la mamat 2, pas2 dgn muka yg bertambh plik die tkan kan 1 buttn kat 1 bende warne hitam ni.. nak tau knpe aku xley on comp..

sbb comp 2 pakai cpu, nak on kene la tkn btg on kat cpu 2.. yg aku bebal sgt gi cari btg kat desktop mcm la comp 2 laptop....malu gile wak2 tu...kalu nenek umr 80 xtau, boley dterima akal la, msti mamat 2 ingt aku dak negara mskin mane yg xde comp..buat malu msia tul aku ni..sowey..hehe "

k la nak blik umah pulak, lectre hr ni da abis...tata titi tutu