Life

Its quite a long time since my last post. There is a lot of thing that I want to write but I dont know how to express everything happen in words. I think it is not because of language, it just me who cannot do it. The only way I know by using the lyrics and change it. The recent event in my life is PPOU project and Jejak Gemilang.

TANPA CINTAMU

Telah ku mungkiri janjiku lagi

Walau seribu kali

Ku ulang sendiri

Aku takkan tempuh lagi

Apakah kau terima cintaku lagi

Setelah ku berpaling

Dari pandanganMu

Yang kabur kerna jahilnya aku



Mengapa cintaMu tak pernah hadir

Subur dalam jiwaku

Agarku tetap bahagia

Tanpa cintaku tetaplah Kau di sana

Aku tanpa cintaMu

Bagai layang-layang terputus talinya




Telah ku mungkiri janjiku lagi

Walau seribu kali

Ku ulang sendiri

Aku takkan tempuh lagi

Apakah kau terima cintaku lagi

Setelah ku berpaling

Dari pandanganMu

Yang kabur kerna jahilnya aku




Masihkah ada sekelumit belas

Mengemis kasihMu Tuhan

Untukku berpaut dan bersandar

Aku di sini kan tetap terus mencuba

Untuk beroleh cintaMu

Walau ranjaunya menusuk pedih

My yesterday

Just watch Gossip Girl. A great story about trust, forgive and friendship.I really need friends to talk but they are not in sell.

I miss him,my best friend. Before he gone, I said something terrible and now I owe his forgiveness.
There is something that should be keep as a secret, for good. When he come back, I really hope he can forgive me.

SAVE ME

How can you see into my eyes like open doors
Leading you down into my core
Where I’ve become so numb without a soul my spirit sleeping somewhere cold
Until you find it there and lead it back home

Wake me up inside
Call my name and save me from the dark
Bid my blood to run
Before I come undone
Save me from the nothing I’ve become

Now that I know what I’m without
You can't just leave me
Breathe into me and make me real
Bring me to life

All this time I can't believe I couldn't see
Kept in the dark but you were there in front of me
I’ve been sleeping a thousand years it seems
Got to open my eyes to everything
Without a thought without a voice without a soul
Don't let me die here
There must be something more
Bring me to life

WAKE ME UP

ALONE

I can take the rain on the roof of this empty house

That don’t bother me

I can take a few tears now and then and just let them out

I’m not afraid to cry every once in a while

Even though going on with you gone still upset me

There are days every now and again I pretend I’m ok

But that’s not what gets me

What hurts the most

We being so close

And having so much to say

But then watching you walk away

And never knowing

How this happened??

It’s hard to deal with the pain of losing you everywhere I go

But I’m doing it

It’s hard to force that smile when I see our old pictures and I’m alone

Still Harder

Getting up, getting dressed, living with this regret

But I know if I could do it over

I would trade give away all the words that I saved in my heart

That I left unspoken

Between us, there is a thick wall

We became too far

And I can’t stand anymore

Living with this hurt..

These wounds won't seem to heal

This pain is just too real

There's just too much that time cannot erase

The only solution..Is leaving you

Only one thing I ask,

Before it’s too late,

Forgive me and

Let me stay in your memory

Forever……

[MV] SUPER JUNIOR: DON'T DON (HQ)

[Donghae] idaero kkeutimyuhn gihwega uhbdamyuhn
Moduga teullyuhddago marhago issuh
[Ryeowook] comedy gateun sesange wootji mothal saramdeul nuhnduhriga na

[All] don’t! don! modeun ge don sesang won ane gadhin nuh what is your mind
[Kibum] you outta control what is your mind
[All] jebal juwireul dorabwa juhlmangui nunbichi boijanha
[Kibum] stop bangin’ my head my eyes gone red

[Sungmin] juhmjuhm muhruhjineunguhl geudaero chungbunhan sesang
Imi gajinguhllo da gippeunsesang
[Geng] kkumkkuduhn saramdeuri hanadoolsshik dduhnabuhryuhdo [heechul] byunhaji anhne

[Eunhyuk + shin dong] the world is mine naega ee segyeui buhbiya
Geudeuri haengbokhagimaneul gidaryuhsseul ddae
[Eunhyuk+kibum] uhneu nuguboda muhnjuh gihwereul jabeun gushil ppun
Yakjareul wihan baeryuh ddawin juhldae uhbsuh

[Siwon] naui boolkkocheul da taewuhsuhrado pogihal soo uhbsuh
[Kyuhyun] juhdeurui guhshi anin woori aideurui sesangeul wihaesuhramyuhn

[eunhyuk] geuraedo nuhmu wuhnmang hajima naega anya
Sesangi nuhl geuruhke mandeunguhya

[Leeteuk + heechul] naega wuhnhaedduhn guhn naneun modu gajyuh
Sesangi nareul wemyuhn hayuhdo nungwa gwireul makgo
Uhjiruhpge mandeuruh buhril
Juhkdanghan muhriwa doni jogeum piryohal ppoon

[Kangin] naui boolkkocheul da taewuhsuhrado jikyuhjugo shipuh
[Yesung] hwandonui shidae kkeute saragaya hal nae aireul wihaesuhramyuhn

[All] don’t! don! modeun ge don sesang won ane gadhin nuh what is your mind
[Kibum] you outta control what is your mind
[All] jebal juwireul dorabwa juhlmangui nunbichi boijanha
[Kibum] stop bangin’ my head my eyes gone red

[All] don’t! don! ijen geuman jom hae
Wisuhnui gamyuhndo buhsuhbuhryuh

[Eunhyuk] buhsuhbuhryuh ni gashigui gamyuhndo
[All] modu gidarigo issuh majimak baraemdo buhrijima
[Eunhyuk] duhnjyuhbuhryuh ni geu gashigui gamyuhndo

[HeeChul] super junior!!!

OHoooo

I was sleep when Sapura told me "We're not going to fly this year!!!". I thought if I had a bad dream. Just after I wake up, I'm looking for explanation from her and I found that Ila was there too. "What happening?" Sapura then show me email from Pn. Naimah send to Azan. The last statement really hurt me; none of uniten student (Felda Scholar) will fly this year, they will fly next year due to the lateness of IKAL information. After read that, I feel like a fire burning in my heart.
It is not easy for me to accept thing like I must fly this year and I had to make the preparation in 1 month. I tried so hard telling myself that I will survive even I'm alone. Now, I'm ready to fly this year. I had apply for New Zealand's university for sem 2 enrolment. I had pay for accomodation in Auckland. I had register for IELTS next week (only 2 days to study). Tomorrow IDP will come yet I dont know for what sem I'm going to apply. Everything so blur. Now, I got headache and I feel so numb. The fire in my heart suddenly replace by ice and everything so cold. I'm not angry anymore but I'm confused. I hope I will not fall sick today.